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January 2008
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January 2009
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April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009

tomato love :D
guess what ! ive just downed the 2 boxes of mini tomatoes i bought this afternoon at woolies for $1.78 each. on top of dinner. argh. its the cold i think. it makes me hungry all the time. :( but mini tomatoes are YUMMY TTM i tell you. mommy will be pleased teehee. :D

and i look grotesque.
cant stand the deadness/paleness/tiredness of the image im seeing in the mirror. i sorta resemble a zombie or one of edward cullen's relations :P LOL LOL. im kidding.
but my eyebags are till my cheekbones luhh. not exaggerating.
and i think its totally not worth it. cuz the sleeplessness doesnt seem to pay off.
i mean. im so tired therefore cant study meaning im just reading blindly if im ever reading at all.so why waste time staring at those words when im better off getting some shuteye right. WELL NO. cuz the moment i hit the pillow yes i fall asleep but then to wake up 2 hours or so later cuz something woke me up and am still exhausted but not be able to sleep properly again cuz of the terrifying thoughts i keep having of the looming paper. that was me last night.and the few nights back. :(
and then to finally make myself get up at around 5 plus to try cram somemore which only stresses me out even more cuz i seem to have forgotten the stuffs ive learnt the night before.
(and its so cold especially in the mornings its a dreadful bother just to uncover the blankets off myself.)

and then to go for the exam lightheaded and dizzy and partially dazed.
only to come out of the hall feeling like crap. cuz of the more question marks gained over that paper.

i really really hate exams.
and i cant wait to be home. seven days. 2 more papers. SIGH.
and its only 1 semester. why does it seem like a year already ?!?! well. it really feels like a year. :/

although those past 4 papers really did fly by, now that i think about it. hmm.
impossibilities and stuff. i wont be able to pass these exams with my own strength i feel, and every time i start to panic id remember phil 4 :6-7 teehee :D it really helps me calm down.
my God is the God of the impossibles, so i have nothing to fear. :D thanks mommy for all the offline msgs. :D i cant wait to see youuuu. ITS SEVEN DAYS cuz today's almost over.heehee.

is it me or is year 2 really harder ??
i feel drained. like instead of manufacturing more brain cells, not literally, but in the sense of gaining more knowledge i feel like the more i know the more i dont know.. and stuff. think i heard that somewhere before ? cliche but absolutely true. :/

decided to take a break today. brain gots to rest too yknw !
so i watched 27 dresses ( ive no idea why it made me cry ) and the devil wears prada (working in the the couture industry is actually really quite scary ).

oh ! got an email from Tara today saying i might be changing rooms next sem !the best news ive had this week !! :D i hope its for the better. like its really quieter as it is known to be. my neighbours as of present are party animals. so imagine the amount of funny noises they make at the most randomest of hours. like till 3am ?!?! Dx yup.that bad.

seven days and 2 more papers.
i can definitely do this.
God help me.