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another night with isomnia.

seems like im running on another timezone. four hours ahead or something like that.
its like i wake up at 3am tossing&turning till i can take it no more so i get up for real at around 6am with the weirdest ideas ever. like this urge i had to go to the piano room when it was around 4am just nowww. if not that it wld be like yesterday when i had this immense urge to go job seeking at Nagano at broadway. yup twas also around 3am. i went there first thing in the morning when i thought was normal enough. like 830-ish. (; turns out they were overstaffed. ah well. the lady said she'll call me when theres a space or something or if one of the workers dropped out. yay :D so i might actually get a job !! :D

& its not the normal urge yknw. its like ill be having butterflies in my tummy till i get up and do something about it. so there would actually be zero chance of me falling asleep after i get up. at 3 am. not good.

and then to last through the day woozy.
feeling exhausted by 9pm only to sleep at around 11 and then the cycle repeats.
whyyyy. i didnt even touch caffeine !!

& its not just these urges to do weird things at weird hours. its also the scary visions that flash through my mind's eye if i continued to toss&turn. & i did try relaxing only to realise that i was tensing up with those weird thoughts again. and frowning so much it hurts by the time i realised. like how itd be like if i was no longer in this world. not suicidal though !! its just like imagining how my lifeless body would look.like if i were to not to ever wake up ever again the next day. like how itd be like if the police were to find me lifeless. :/ that wasnt too scary. its uber unreal and precisely why its really really madly weird. and like if i were to lose somebody scarily. dont wanna go into the details. :x cuz it will never happen and it will never happen. period.

maybe i should accept that this is my stupid circadian rhythm. that i should actually start my day at 3am. so i wont have to toss and turn in the dark trying to get some more sleep. but its sooo :S if yknw what i mean.

or maybe im not even making sense. cuz i was up at 3am. second day consecutively.

and now i wonder what would i actually think of myself when im fifty years old and reading this. would i even remember this blog ? would i remember how its like to be me now at nineteen ?? or would i forget. like how my parents and all the old people seem to forget their younger days. or at least remember them differently. maybe the older you get the more things you see in life coupled with more perspective (of life&ladas) one inevitably gains on the way as one ages one can either get duller, as in boring-er , or fun-er. i hope i dont get boring-er than i already am. :x

maybe then at fifty if i ever do browse this blog again i might think myself crazier/weirder than i already think i actually am now. like how i when i look back to the time i was 11/12/13/14 how strange and totally uncool i was then. when i actually thought i was awesomely cool when i was 11/12/13/14. if you actually understand what im talking about.
if not its still ok !
-actually, even better. (x


hmm.


anyways !
since its been uber long since ive last updated theres pretty much nothing to update about cuz its pretty much uni everyday. or the pub.hol - anzac dayyyy.
uni = tryna study. really i did frikkin try okay. (x + tests&exams + friends&some actually fun stuffs with friends. i miss vic already.
pub.hol = clearing the laundry basket & practically living in peejays all day (x that or hanging out with my sweetheart.teehee (x

and then chatting w my besties online. i really miss them immensely. immensely immensely immense. lol ! but its true.
& mommy has just got intro-ed to msn ! so shes darn adorable spamming all the emoticons like some novelty-filled new found toy. i miss her so much it hurts. i wanna go back this sembreak but then on (many) second thoughts, ill only be not bored for 2 weeks tops and then ill be complaining wanting to come back here again. and especially when its only a 4 week break. ill feel too unsettled to enjoy home for home.yknw what i meannn ?? 4 weeks is neither here not there. and although it still gets boring here too. but it takes longer. somehow. (x
but still i cant wait till end of this year !!! im so needing that trip to jantzen !! my hair. my hair seriously needs a makeover. really really.
i should stop repeating myself . it makes me sound crazier.
right.
that, and i shall stop boring you innocent people with my 6am rants too.

and hopefully the next time it'll be non-6am when i decide to blast my thoughts on the internet.

(x

Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father;
There is no shadow of turning with Thee;
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not;
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be.

Refrain

Great is Thy faithfulness!
Great is Thy faithfulness!
Morning by morning new mercies I see.
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided;
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me!

Summer and winter and springtime and harvest,
Sun, moon and stars in their courses above
Join with all nature in manifold witness
To Thy great faithfulness, mercy and love.

Refrain

Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide;
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow,
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside!

i really really like this song ! (((:

& tis' my daddy's favourite song too.

God surely is faithful. :D :D :D

hyehyee ! ive deleted the emo posts cuz i dont wanna be emo no more.
thank you & you, nat & yonatan for that im session last night.(:
let me gush out the last of my blahs. thank you thank youuu !((:

thanks nat for reminding me. ive read hebrews 11 like you asked me. now i know. not having faith is wrong. especially in God. & ive also gotten my definition of faith straight too. i was wrong. cuz now i know that faith is being sure of what i hope for and what i do not see. believing that God is un ultimate control and will indeed keep His promises. if not in this life, then surely the next (((: & that without faith it is impossible to please God. that chapter got me thinking. those ancient people..as in those people of those times, they must have had immense faith to believe that God existed. when their lives were much much much more tougher than mine now. wow. that makes me feel blessed ! (:
thank you my dearest awesome brother !! :D

& thank you, yonatan for being so patient with me and for making that decision too. i thank you & love you from the tipmost muscle cell of the apex of my cardiac muscle.:D

yknw.sometimes really, im amazed at your patience. with me especially. :x



teehee (x

congratulations Eunice, you have reached emotional equilibrium.
yarha. with faith, it shall stay this way. (((x

--

& i shall live my life to the fullest ; by faith, not by might. (:


muaha.if looks could kill (x teeheeyummyyummy :P
i likeee he dont likeee.hrmpf.

but anyways.
got his hair cut todayyy. yay!
happy eight months darlin' !!! :D :D :D
we celebrated by going to nandos for dinner yesterday and movie this afternoon.
finally watched the pink panther 2. awesomely hilarious ((((x silly man.
nandos was fab. as usual. we ordered two's a party with largeeee periperi chips. so full that by the time we got home we had businesses to do.lol.too much detail i know ;P muaha

anyhoos. look what we got for our movie todayyyy :D
yeaa its supposedly the large combo. but but but i thought it would come in tt pweetaye pink panther box the customer beside us had. D: ahh well. yummy popcorn (((:


hada belly full of popcorn&coke by the time inspector jacque closeau sloved the case. after the movie we walked past the pet shop at garbo. omgawd.the tiny creatures. so darn cute it hurts. the stripped kitten who was ostracised by the other 3 useless ones ( okay not useless.but i saw the way it tried to interact.the other 3 black longgish haired ones just sat there dumbly.) & the tiny brown chihuahua & the black german sheperd x staffy mix were the cutest. sighhh. their eyes. its in their eyes. the way they look at you. itll just melt your heart at that very instant.

or maybe just mineee :x

:(
wished i could bring one home.

ahh well. teehee. im lovin my boyf's new haircut.(x
so cute right (((x
--
Inspector Clouseau: Let me bring you up to speed... We know nothing. You are now up to speed.
( the pink panther 2, 2009)

so terribly heeheeheelariousssss xD

happy good friday ! :D
its so awesome i finally get a break from school.
the timing is impeccable. (((;
-just when i was really already losing steam, losing interest, yknw.

everybody's gonna be gone for 10 days.
well...most people. my neighbours -claire & katie - will be gone for 10 days.
so will nicole.
seeing her pack her stuffs to go back to sweet ol sg yesterday really made me wish i could go to. but anyway. its just 10 days. might as well save the cash eh ? ill be back end of this year & i cannot wait !!
the place seems really alot quiter & emptier today.
kinda weird not hearing a random female thunder down the corridor. or talking/giggling/screaming/loling..

decided to stay home today.
need rest. dont really wanna see the world today.
actually wanted to sleep in but but but my stupid stomach woke me up.
head wants the pillow stomach wants food.
stomach always wins.
bleaugh.
had yoghurt and museli. seems like my favourite kinda thing to eat these days.
but still.
i hope the food stays in & the nausea doesnt get too bad.
i think theres a bug in my tummy :( have been vomitting the past 3 days already.
really really sucks.
its like hungry nausea then feel like crap then hungry then nausea then feel like crap & the cycle keeps repeating.


oh crap. theres tt wave of nausea.again. :S

im planting myself here.
infront of this screen.
gonna find sth to distract myselffffff.

bev sent me midnight sun!! :D tytytytytyyy (;
but its incompleteeee,why ?? why why why, stephanie meyerrr !?!?!?!
gahh. damn that idiot who leaked it out.
but still!! its edward's pov!!! itd be so darn awesome if it were completeeee.
good people like us wanna read !! it isnt fairrrr.

okay ill definitely shuttup whining already.






EUNICE IS FINALLY DONE WITH PSYC3315'S LAB REPORTING!!! :D :D :D
i hope theres no more next half of this sem.
but for now its chill chill chill! :D easter break is comin & i can hardly wait ! :D then after that would be study break. yessss ill get some studying doneee but im gonna be having funnnnn toooss :D

stomach isnt very good these past days.
nausea & bloating . explain explain ?? ehh. i dunno. :/ maybe a bug ?
ive been banned from junkfood till the end of time. im kidding. till at least this sunday. so im refraining from entering the dining hall for dinner cuz its like temptations galore over there. & given that me likes to eat. especially the dessertttt its best i do not enter. D: gahhhh.
so my dinner today was like 3 slices of bread with soup and a museli bar.
im still hungryyyyy :(

im gonna go hunt fr sth nonjunkfood to eat.



Type down your reactions when someone says these phrases to you.

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
like whatttt ??

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
huh. really ?

LEAVE HIM/HER ALREADY! YOU'LL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME.
HAHAHHA no. ^^

COME ON. SMILE. YOU'RE CUTE WHEN YOU DO!
uhhh. huh.

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO!
for 100 bucks i will ! :D :D :D

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU.
hee(; thank you!

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
just because.

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH ME?
eeeee no. spare my tympanic membrane.please.

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
yea. all along. :D

I THINK I'M FALLING FOR YOU..
dont blufffff ! you seem relatively stable.hmmm. nope. not fallling.

WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
HAHHAHA.right. its 000 if you really want it :D

MAY I ESCORT YOU?
you too free ah.

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING THAT I WANTED
want-ed eh. sighh. why the change ?

WHO's

Who is in the house with you?
a whole college of other females.

Who are you thinking about now?
um. currently nothing on my mind..'cept tt i really should be doing my lap report why am i doing this. but this is really funn-er than that stupid report. somehow.

Who did you last talk to on the phone?
mom.

Whose house did you last go to?
yonatan's

Whose birthday is next?
my bro's !

Who was the LAST person you loved
still am lovin' so qn not appilcable.

Who do you hope will take this survey
whoever

WHAT's

What was the last thing you ate?
starburst snakesss

What was the last thing you drank?
water

What is the closest item near you that is blue?
good question.

What instant messaging service do you use?
windows

What is your favorite website?
youtube.facebook.( the 2 mains cant think of any else)

What is your favorite shoe brand?
havaianassss

What song are you currently hearing?
pokerface-lady gaga

WHERE's

Where do you live?
st catherine's college room 92

Where do you sleep?
on the bed

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
heeeeee (x its yonatan's. i stole it. shhh!

WHEN's

When is your birthday?
10th AUGUST. a momentous occasion in history :D

When did you last burn a candle?
you dont burn a candle,silly. you light them. they burn on their own.

When did you last see your dad?
16th february 2009

WHY's

Why do we have to go to school?
cuz everybody's actually quite dumb. & education's the only remedy.

Why are you taking this survey?
cuz i really really dont wanna do my idiotic lab report. :((((((((((
{edit}
muaha.
ignore the spazzie title kays. ^^

ive decided im gonna blog in yellowred from now on.
lawls.
its cooler.

&omgawd. my retarded nails. ive redone them the gazillionth time already. they dont seem to be able to stay perfect without me ruining them somehow with the way i do things.
its not that im careless...just that i cant just sit still looking pretty not doing anything for like 2 hours while it takes that amount of time to set properly. & then i tell myself that i can actually be doing something just gotta be real careful.
& i am careful.
just that i deal with dangerous sharp objects that are so out there to ruin my nails.
& they didnt seem to pose that much of an annoyance before.

but i really like it when i get them done.. even if its just in clear (((; its prettier. somehow.
yknw what its like rightttt !!!
yea. & im waitg for them to dry now. & hence ranting here cuz ive got nothing else i can do.
yea im typing. with my fingers. but dont worry ive got techniques.
lawlsss.

anyhoos.
yesterday!!
i was really really happy&suprised when cherlyn called!! omgawd. its like forever since i heard her voice!! i miss it immensely. yes immensely.i mean ever single letter (; then we got high. as usual. she was walking to pinewood like an aunty to do some marketing. okay ill put it nicelyyy. she was walking to pinewood like an aunty to get some groceries. muaha. xD
i miss you girl !!!! gosh. why do we so hafta be in different statesss :( sighhh. omg imagine if we were tgt in the same place same time etc !?!??! & the shopping we could do tgt & the amount of time we would inevitably spend purely crapping tgt & the fun we would have.
HAHAHHA. i doubt we would ever get much studying done. but i think that too is possible. likeee how we tried in secondary school :P rmb rmb??? we ended up chasing each other around the canteen for God knows what reason. must be really random. like whos dumb eyecandy just walked past & who "AHEMED" too loudly when the former walked past or something else like fishballs&chilli. teehee. im kidding.

okay i really must stop blabbing & apply my topcoat now & then go out to meet ngyuzhe (X
SEEYAMAHHOMIES!!

OH OH OH!!! didja knowww!! i received a really huge parcel today. from homeee. yarr who else would actually send me nice huge parcels like that other than mommy&daddy.gosh i miss them. but perhaps not too much to really wanna go back this sem breakkk teehee. but im lovin that box now. still unopened. but i wanna relish in opening it when im not actually rushing off someplace ?! yup. so itll remain unopen till prolly when im back from wherever today!!
:D :D :D
i actually cant wait & im resisting that huge urge to just tear that box opennnn. mommy said to "give myself a suprise and laugh out loud when i see what they put in there." her words exactly.
so cute rightttt !!!
yes mommy ill do just that (;
&therefore ! its essential i be not rushing off someplace whilst doing that.. like now.

OKAY REALLY GOTS TO GO NOW BYE
{/edit}

happy april fool's xD
today youdubb had proshh so that equals to me having a holidayyy.
no school so spent time w yonatan :D :D

lunched in the city. kfc.
saw a pigeon who slammed into the moving glass door and broke its back. the poor thing had an open woundddd :S on its back where it was broken. its whole tail was really nearly detached. im not exaggerating.there was a small pool of blood on the floorrrrr .. so poor thing i tell you. it looked so frightened like it knows its not gonna make it but has to endure its last few painful hours. with not a single pigeon loved one beside it. or perhaps it doesnt know what just happened to it other than that overwhelming pain & confusion it must be feeling then. us humans must looked really scary to it. :( sighh. it could hardly balance on its one good leg. & was shaking quite abit. like one would if in great pain..i felt nauseous when i saw it close up while getting out of kfc. & till now.
its ironic i just had a boxful of chicken. its actually quite gross ;/ really really grosssss. it was yummy till then. :/

i dont know why but that got me imagining myself in its place. it would really suck. to think that the breadcrumbs it was eating maybe a few minutes back was the last of the breadcrumbs it will ever be eating. or that last night's sleep in its nest was the last time it will ever be sleeping in/returning to that nest.
& to be in need of help when it cant communicate at all.
-the other species wondering around seemed either too intimidating or oblivious to its plight.

& after it finally dies does it no longer exist ?
cuz ive been told animals dont go to heaven cuz theyve no soul. reallyyyy ??? :( its really sad to think animals like dogs who help the disabled dont even get a chance to go to heaven. its actually quite unfair.


sucks to be that pigeon i guess.
thank God im made human.