something feels like things have changed.i dont know for sure if its necessarily good.
though im hoping very much for it to be. for sakes.
its confusing me.
ive never been on my own this way before.
or maybe its just cuz of the bloody cold weather.
the sun never seems to shine long enough for me to thaw out properly , completely.
its depressing just seeing the clouds come in again.
where are those happy days?
they seem so hard to find.
you seem so far away.
too far , baby , too far. :(
when you're gone ,
how can i even try to move on ?
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went to school just for 1 lecture can you believe it.
im so on about school even i find myself hard to believe.
its getting scary.
like what if i cant wake up on time & then miss a lect.
yea its just a lect so what.
but then itll accumulate that its gonna be hard to catch up again.
& moreover the temptation to sleep in is !!!!!
i already overslept today.
but thankfully its just 1st week so some lects are neither here nor there & it so happens i dont have either 2 lects i would have missed today ! :D
went Vic/Lijin's house thereafter.
had nandos for lunch/dinner.
& omg. GUITAR HERO ROCKS CAN !!!!!
i want i want i want !!!!
but given my circumstances somebody tell me how.
D:
ah well.
& then we went garbo to watch MAMMA MIA.
nice songs BUT the movie's more like a musical sorta thingy.
so like for every 5 minutes of normal acting theres gonna be a song.
i think its quite okay.
the way they all burst into songs' actually quite hilarious.
so when the movie's laughable i think kudos should actually be given ! :D
see im so nice.
yea whatever.
i still feel so insignificant its quite depressing.
OH GEEZ.
GET A GRIP.
NO MORE EMO.
NOT GONNA CRY.
THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS.
:D
is there anybody i can actually rely on ?