Eunice
♥
"
Pale with the secret war of feeling,
Sustained with courage, mute, yet high;
The wounds at which she bled, revealing
Only by altered cheek and eye;"
xoxo,23:10
HELLOOOO MAH DEAREST HOMIESSS!!!:Dim finally home.(&using my new pretty red lappie.)
5 months is way too long.
BUT.
my bestest bestie's leavin tomorrow D:
SIGHH.why oh why.
:(
if you leave me now
you'll take away the biggest part of me
ooh no.baby please dont go.
if you leave me now
you'll take away the very heart of me
ooh no, baby please dont go.
oh girl.i just want you to stay.
even if its fr a freakin week?!?!
gahh.OH WELLS(:
im really happy fr you bestfriend!!:D
cos see??we both made it to uni!!
when the silly-us frm our yesteryears thought otherwise?!
& dont you worry too okay!
i think you'll do just fine.(:
i believe in you.:D
p.s.im gonna miss you shitloads though.
Labels: bestie, BFFs, home, vacation
xoxo,14:09
heyo.seems like i finally have a life other than the internet eh.
nahh.
just really busy packing packing packing.
&still loads more to stuff.&im leaving for the airport in 8 hours.
how cool is that yo!
***WARNING:EMO STUFFS/EXPLICIT LANGUAGE BELOW.get outta here.its the part of the side of me you dont wanna see.***
dont say i didnt warn you.
i dont know why but im suddenly jitterish about going home.
& to think ive been waiting like forever for today?!
its like maybe ive changed maybe ive not.
but still im pretty positive im not the same girl i was beginning of this year.
& the last few trips home havent been really fun in the end cos mom&dad werent used to the new me.& then the loggerheads.
as much as i love them i cant remain the same girl just cos of that.
-the same girl meaning me when i was 16.
16 was innocence, not knowing much about anything at all.
16 was before this semi-independence.
its like cos ive grown a little ive let them down.
i cant help but change, parents, GET USED TO IT!
they say ignorance is bliss,
&well now that i know, i have to agree.
16 was before everything.
16 was before mrD.
i thought ive moved on.
was almost confident that i already have.
& like fuck this.everytime im finally quiet beside myself the whole thing comes flooding back.its not fair.i wish he never happened.
its been what, 6 months already?!??!?!gahh.is there something i can take so that i can really totally forget he ever existed???id give anything.
guys can be such jerks.
i hate emo people.
its disgusting when im like this.
its fuckin pathetic.
OKAY.
ENOUGH EMO SHIT.
be happy Eunice.youre going home!!!!!
;D
car rides & lazy afternoons.
xoxo,21:01
EXAMS ARE OVERI REPEAT.
EXAMS ARE FREAKIN' O-V-E-R!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well fr me at least (;
to those who still have exams..KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK!!:Ditll be over before you know it :D
and then itll be your turn to say FREEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeDOM YO!!!!!!!!:D
ahhaha.
damn high now.
ooh.
guess what.
my room is finally neat.
like its finally in proper living conditions.
like its finally lookin good!like a girl's room should.
oh gosh.ive actually been living in a ghetto-like room fr the past 6 months.
thats gross.
& anyways.
EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR!!!!!!!!
cant stop repeating it.hehh.
my 1st uni-semester exams.
im not gonna touch webct fr like EVER?!well..till next sem starts.HAH.
ive just put away all my notes&books.
feels so good doin that.
okay enough bloggin.
me gots better things to do.
SEE Y'ALL LATER!XD
pop lock & drop it(;
Labels: exams, freedom
xoxo,21:29
ooh boy.this blog seems dead.
its like so stagnant.
like so unhappening.
like my life.
LOL.
how happening can the life of a mugger be anyways?
all i can think of right now is TOMORROW,AFTER CHEM.
whoots.
i think ill be too tired to do anything.
but maybe not!cos i can literally get high just thinking abt it.ask my friends.its weird.i know.
camped over at the MCL last night.
feels weird.
like i havent done this fr a long long time.
actually.its a really long time!
haha lol!
didnt sleep a wink!-only closed my eyes cos my contacts were killing me.
but by 4am though i was still awake i could feel myself zoning out.like the place was floating or the words were criss crossing.if you knw what i mean.
its like im awake but not really awake?like im conscious but not so conscious?but yet conscious of the fact that im drifting?like i can literally feel sleep spindles forming..or the length of my brain waves increasing?HAHA.LOL i bet im boring y'all with all that.:P
bear with me.
im in a geek/nerd mode.
so everything im gonna say's gonna sound pretty geek-like/boring/prolly incoherent?
but not that geeks arent cool.
theyre cool too y'knw.
like they can know those bloody ridiculous formulae offhand & even find use of them in their eveyday lives.i mean thats like so totally cool right.
oh gosh.
i keep forgetting i still HAVE to study.
dammit.
&its chem smore.
this sucks.
big time.
\to the calypso beat!
Labels: exams
xoxo,18:50
oh gosh.psych ppr today was..i dunno?a blast?izzat the right word??
LOL.
imagine.
100 mcqs.& mind u..set by psych Phds so u wont knw if theyre actually scheming against you by setting up traps in the ppr..like u knw..reverse psychology?or reverse reverse psychology..like they make u think theyre using reverse psych on you but in fact its rather straightforward & etc ?
AND THEN.
theres 2 essay qns tt youve to choose outta 3.&gosh i didnt evn prepare fr those.but i still managed to produce enough rubbish to cover 3 pages each.smart eh?LOL.
okay i think the piano's beckoning me.
PLAY PIANO TIME!!!:D
laters y'all!
xx
{edit}
oh. i realised ive happily forgotten to inform the whole wide world tt ive a new piano!!!!
awesome hey.
:D
meloves!
{/edit}
Labels: exam, random
xoxo,23:21
YO DAD.
I CAME TO BLOGSPOT
SPECIALLY JUST FOR YOU
TO TELL THE WORLD HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU
(which is ALOT ALOT ALOT!!!)
& TO WISH YOU THE HAPPIEST FATHER'S DAY EVER.
:D
P.S i miss you so so so so much.:(
Labels: birthday, DAD
xoxo,22:49
MY DADDY'S THE BESTEST DADDY IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE & IM SO GLAD HIS MINE.:Dits true!
know why?
he
has
just
freakin'
bought
me
a
new
lappieeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!
& i didnt even ask fr it!!!!!!!!!!
zomgxzs right???!?!?
its RED.
its gorgeous.-um.duhh?i only like pretty things.(;
its new.
its EVERYTHING GOOD LUHH.
&its waiting fr me in sg.WOOHOO.
IN 13DAYS YO!:D :D :D
thank you so very much daddy(:
i love you soooooooo much,do you know?
its gonna be Fathers' Day in sg in 2 hours time.
nevermind that!
lemme start declaring it now(:
lemme be the first!
HAPPY FATHERS' DAYYYY!!:D
thanks fr EVERYTHING.
i love you from the deepest depths of my heart.
its been 4 months.i really miss you.& i really miss calling you 'dad'.really,i do.
you're the awesomest dad any girl could ever have.
thank you.
xxx
tell me more.
xoxo,23:53
today's friday the thirteenth.i only realised it whn like twas nearly dinner today.
LOL.
this sun's singapore's Fathers' Day.
i forgot.
i havent gotten my dad anything.
i realised how much i relied on the adverts in shops&mags to know whats really going on.
&as you can see,there arent any Fathers' Day adverts here in oz.cos oz's Fathers' Day's in september.
im sucha a letdown.im really really sincerely sorry,Dad.really,i am.after all that you've done for me i cant for the life of me bloody remember when Fathers' Day is.
what should i do?
call&wish?
will you feel the same exhilaration mom felt when she got her Mothers' Day card posted all the way from here?
i want you to be happy,as happy as mom or even more.but how can you be?whn all you got was a call?
yea & then you'll tell me that all i have to do is do well in school.
why do you have to have such high hopes of me?why???havent i let you down before?why do you still believe in me?
the new friends ive made here commented that im really quiet.
well its cos i feel ive nothing much to say about everything, or that if i do it wont really matter anyhow.like even if i say no one will really understand.
i dont know whats gotten into me.the cat got my tongue perhaps?highly unlikely.but i wasnt like this before.i only realised how im really quiet these days just today.that ive really changed.or have i,really?i havent felt really truly happy for the longest time yet.maybe im depressed.though i really hope im not.but really, im sorry dear friends if ive been sucha damper.
& then to open up.
ive tried.but yet some old reflex in me keeps me from doing just that.though try as i might to overcome it, it dont seem to go away.
its like i cant help but hold back.
once bitten twice shy, they say.but i dont see why i should hold back.& then whn i try to open up.i choke freeze stop,& then nothing.
maybe im me no more.
i wanna be me again.
i needa get high.
blue beat.
xoxo,00:05
10 hours in the libs AGAIN XD.woohoo.7 lectures completed.never felt more accomplished than running a marathon (X.
im sky high!thanks to the redbulls&gummies[courtesy of my housemate.(;] which were my sustenance for tonight.YEEEHAWW!!
although i still feel as though i can fly so high like sky high i think i oughta get some rest.ive still loads to complete & MY FIRST PAPER'S THIS THURS!!!!D:
okies.time fr my beauty sleep.
but before that!let me bimbo fr a while.:D
-its un-nerdifying fr moi y'knw.
i blow kisses.
xx
xoxo,14:48
why is the internet so damn fckg slowwww?!?!?!?!?argh.just whn i really really sincerely needst thou,thy dearest Internet, why dost thou forsake thee!why!oh me.-she faints-
LOL.as in seriously.
the drama was cos im so bored.
this thing is like killing me softly just waiting for any page to load.yes webct is STILL LOADINGGGG.ugh.
winter/cold mornings are not good.no no no.not good.
know why?
cos the moment you wake up all eager to start the day you'll wanna snuggle back in.
i hate getting the duvet off me.
the only thing that got me out was my rumbling tummy.its amazing how sleeping can make one so hungry.
aft breakf was me deciddg if i shld really go to uni for real.
although pros outweighed the cons considerably..the cons were far more enticing.
one of which's the slow internet.well at least theres internet hey.
im still adamant on setting up my internet thingy in sch.cos i know me & i know wht will happen if that happens.like i end up gg to sch just fr stuffs on the internet..yknw what i mean!
the granny was really nice.
shes like wanting to treat me as one of her own & for me to call her "po-po"(canto fr granma).its kinda weird cos ive never called someone unrelated to me in such an endearing way.but then again almost half of wht she says i dont rly understand..& so dont know how to reply.so my reply comes out weird n evn to me it doesnt make any sense but she doesnt seem to mind anyway.sweet aint it?
oh.n she piles my plate whnever she cooks fr me which is like every lunch&dinner im at home to eat.n i cant say i cant finish..cos i dont know how to bloody phrase that right.ahh wells.i shall count tt a blessing.cos many others out there dont have even a piece of bread to eat!
Tian-en was damn funny today.guess what.we did some drawing today.
we drew a house with 5 windows.
this is what happened :
T:why are there so many windows?
me: cos there are many people living in it.
T:like here?
me: hmm.yea.like here.
T:okay.then this one(meaning the window)is for you..this one for me this one for my mom and this one for my granmma.
me:&this one?(the remaining window)
T:this one's for the 2 boys.cos they stay together.
me: (i was already laughing) why are they staying together?
T:cos they like each other.
i just burst out laughing.
innocence&ignorance is bliss eh.
stop&stare.
xoxo,11:12
Me: how does the world perceive Me?
Myself: I dont know.
I: what do I look like?
Myself: I dont know.
-silence-
Myself: what do I want to make of Myself?
-silence-
Myself: doesnt anyone care?
-silence-
I&Me: dont know.dont think so.just be Yourself.
Myself: whos Yourself?
dont know.
xoxo,00:19
was analysing the pack of starburst gummies which i just bought yesterday..contemplating why-oh-why is it all gone now.its the 350g pack mine you.too fast!!D:
THEN.i realised.i forgot to read the warning label that came with this potent pack o'yummies.
cos you see, at the back there states:
NO WONDER.
but haha.THIS i know(;i ALWAYS go fr the HEAPS CHEWIERs.
&the sight of these..ahhh.O for _ ?LOL!!! *HINT:sex&thecity's still very much in my head.gahh.
OKAYY. &abt my day?i hvnt at all been studying.after that post i continued to youtube like an addict.till it sorta started hanging/jamming/becoming retarded on me whichever term you understand best.yea.&so i decided to play with my cam!:D
hees.
if you cant be it..at least pretend to be it till you get there hey(;
&play the part too.
the part meaning me morphing into full-time nerd fr my remaining 3 weeks of my 1st semester of my 1st year in university.
cos really honestly speaking,really honestlyyyy.i hvnt been studying at all.well.at least not properly.cos i still feel like i hv done nothing at all!!!D:
SO.
playing the part..
or not?
its amazing how different one can look with&w/out glasses eh.
the last red one was also taken together with the rest just just now.just me tryin out some new effect.
HAHA.whats with that word "just".
LOL im just tryna explain meself.chill!
French Fries
/Friday, June 6, 2008
xoxo,14:21
OMG how true!!
hahaha i recommend her other vids too!:D
dont hate my french fries.
xoxo,00:38
A charm invests a face
Imperfectly beheld.
The lady dare not lift her veil
For fear it be dispelled.-Emily Dickinson
its so uncannily parallel to my situation i just had to blog it down lest i forget this existed & become bogged down by tt impending sense of dread one gets thinking theres no one else out there in his/her situation again.(:
thank you, Emily Dickinson(;
xoxo,23:09
'SUP MAH HOMMIESSS!!!:D
im so high it must be nando's EXTRA HOT PERI-PERI CHILLI.
WOOTS!
im sky high.
hees.dont knw why i went uni today man.i practically did nothing.EXCEPT PRACTICE THE PIANO FOR 3 HOURS?!?!?!gosh.ive never been so in love.with KAWAI the Piano of cos.fancy me being in love with an inanimate object.BUT NO. Kawai isnt inanimate!it makes music.
& fyi.Kawai is a piano brand name.cool hey.
LOL random random.
okay.i will study tomorrow.
i will.i will TRY.
hopefully dumb chem lab doesnt exhaust me.
im craving redbull.
but at this hour?!??!
OH HO HO!!
im gonna have sex&thecity tomorrow.
hees.i mean.im gonna watch Sex And The City tomorrow.:D
i shld stop being a roff.
roff is sucha a cool word.
the jargon of a granfalloon.
or perhaps not. -not the meaningless part about granfalloons though.(;
& on the way home today i dont know what made me look up into the sky.
i realise ive been doing that more often than usual these days.
the night skies here are just so pretty.esp whn all the stars are visible like today.
sooooo pretty.
scorpio's full out.even its tiny red heart.(the red star that marks its "heart")
its so awesome,its breathtaking.i mean like..seriously.
AND THEN.
I SAW A SHOOTING STAR!!!:D:D:D
i was like O.O OMGWOWW.
i mean this one's like the clearest EVER.
it sorta went in a loop too before it disappeared.like it was doing its little dance.that pretty little thing.
&then i cant help but wonder.
we all live in under this same sky,in this same 1 world.why do people hate each other so much?where's the love y'all!
world peace.(:
xoxo,00:01
You've got a winning smile and magnetic personality that people are just drawn to. You're probably known for setting trends and tend to be the one that friends call to find out what the plans are for the night.
The judges couldn't help but notice your natural poise and polish — you definitely know how to attract attention whether you're making a speech or just taking the stage in the ultimate outfit. It's wonderful that you exude so much charm and confidence — that's sure to take you far. You're a bright star, Miss Charisma. Keep on shining.
HAHAHA cool man. :D
SHOUTOUTS!!
THANK YOU Yonathan fr helping me w tt darn iris thingy!!!:D:D:D seriously i couldnt have done it w/out u man.
CHERLYNNNN: gahhh.me not being in SG is really irritating the crap outta me. D:
&&&!! 8GB?!?!?!?OMGSZXSZX.
BEV:thanks fr delivering that prezzie fr me!!:D:D:D LOVE YA MUCHOS!!xx
(&to CHERLYN too!):HURRY PLAN PLAN PLAN!!!!omg i reallyyyyyy cant waaaiiiittt!!!!
&according to Alvin.ive been up fr 18hours already.woohoo.
we r being so freakin lame hes msn/com crashed.LOL.omg.this is unbelievable.
xoxo,02:44
ive 4 hours more till the start of a tuesday in uni.tell me, will it be worth the trip to slumberland?
--
Dearest CHERLYN,
HAPPY NINETEENTH 19th 19TH 1-9 BIRTHDAY BESTFRIEND!!!!:D:D:D
im so sorry im like always not there whn ure online.D:
but just so you know that i havent forgotten,HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN!!!:D
gahhh.IM SUPPOSED TO BE IN SG SUPRISING YOU WITH SOMETHING NOW TODAY?!?!?!?dang.:/ohwell.
please do take care of yourself k!
& GET WELL SOON FR GOODNESS SAKE!!!
DONT BE GLUM OR GLOOMY FOR TODAY'S YOUR BIG DAY.
TAKE A LAUGH & BE MERRY.
HAVE CAKE!DO NOT WORRY!
FOR YOU'RE ONLY NINETEEN!NOT YET TWENTY!:D
hees.made that up.kinda cheesygoofy but yea.HOPE YOU LIKED IT:D
im soooo happy we are still besties(:
im missing you so much its not funny.
love,
Eunice
p.s. did you receive my sms????please say you got it!!!
xoxo,09:23
in Chirst alonei place my trust
& find my glory in the Power of the Cross
in every victory
let it be said of me
my source of Strength,
my source of Hope,
is Christ alone.
&thank you, Isaac, for that convo(:
its really great to know that i can still find a friend in you even through all these years & those stuff.
&may God bless you always.(;