Eunice
♥
"
Pale with the secret war of feeling,
Sustained with courage, mute, yet high;
The wounds at which she bled, revealing
Only by altered cheek and eye;"
xoxo,23:52
I miss you a little,
a little too much actually.
And a little more everyday.
cold&dreary days, long waiting times for buses&trains makes me think too much.
theres just so many questions im dying to have them answered.
do brainwaves work?
if i thought of you hard enough, will you be able to feel it?
even if we are 7 hours apart?
have i crossed your mind at all since the day we parted?
its over already i know.
but why i keep asking myself why.
why did we meet
& then loved
& then parted so soon,so suddenly.
i kinda hate you for that that you did.
id walk that thousand miles just to see you & give you that slap you so deserve.
here's a toast...
to all girls out there
who are crying tonight
because she made the biggest
mistake of her life
when she let him slip away
just because she was too scared.
gahh.
this is pathetic.
what will be will be.
whats mine is mine
i shall not worry.
& i shall keep telling myself that.
but was letting him go wrong????
okay eunice.shut up stop thinking get over him already.
fuck it.fuck you.
in&out,in&out
xoxo,20:48
gosh.weren't we all ugly things once?even the drop-dead-gorgeous-miss-universes were once like that!
coolio.
people are all the same.
we only get judged by what we do.
personality reflects me.
so if im ugly then so are you(:
taller in more ways.
xoxo,14:50
okay lemme get this straight.the Blastocyst talks to the Endometrium thereby giving rise to the formation of Syncytiotrophoblast & Cytotrophoblast which later forms the Placenta??!!?!?!
& thats not it.theres still more retarded names to know&memorizzzeeee.dammit.
embyrogenesis & all kinds of reproduction.its just us proliferating for goodness sake!!why must we know the goddamn details?!it just takes out the fun of the whole thing.if u knw wht i mean.its not fascinating at all .
well.unless you're interested in the whole ladas then ive not further comments.
&then theres calmaeth which im thinking of pretending it doesnt exist cos it always becomes retarded on me.& then theres a bio online quiz thing due today too.eff la.why.tell me why.
then theres a psych essay due monday & a bio lab quiz worth 16 pathetic % on tuesday.
im so stressed i binged on a whole pack of ginger cookies.BUT its weightwatchers so no worries (;uhh.actually, not quite no worries.cookies' STILL cookies!?gahh.D:
out of phone creds.
cant phone mom.
cant phone vic/OLJ's homestay.
cant msg.
imma castaway.
thank God for the internet(;
OH HO HO!!
GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT!!
i found somewhere damn cool in UWA!!!:D:D:D
i almost forgot to blog it down.hees.
its the MUSIC BUILDING!!!THEY HAVE ROOMS WHERE U CAN PRACTICE THE PIANO alone if u want to..BUT OMGZSXSXZSZXZSXZ!!!that so made my day yesterday.oh & thanks to YO-natan who accompanied me there too:Dif not i might not have found it.
awesome hey.im gonna go there as much as i can!
okay fun time's over.
i so totally must know the behind-the-scenes-makings of a baby now.
-
if theres so much i must be,
can i still just be me,
the way i am?
can i trust in my own heart
or in my just one part of some big plan?
xoxo,11:57
its midweek!i love it how my timetable allows me to stay at home on weds &fris.HAH.
just didnt feel like gg to uni tdy.
i shudder at the thought of spending another day in the R-library.i wanna go find somewhere else to study.i need a change in env if u knw wht i mean.
waking up naturally is best!
naturally meaning no alarmclock with that irrinoying ringtone.
naturally meaning i dont hafta drrraaaaggg myself outta bed like i usually do.
naturally means after approx 10 hours of sleep ,or more if i need.but usually 10 hours(;
fell asleep at my com again last night whilst trying to understand nucleophilic substitution of the benzene ring.friggin lame if u ask me.woke up at 5am.lights were still on.went fr a shit!hees:Dwent back to sleep till like 10.57am.well rested(:
had huge brekkie & am now wondering if i shld phone mom.i really want to but then whn we start talking we can talk till like 4 hours or till either of our phone batts dies on us.or if i get annoyed by the things she sometimes says..then another day will be gone.no studying done.
but if i dont call...THE URGE TO SURF THE NET might take over.which im hoping wont.which by blogging actually presents a symptommmm..?!?!?!argh.
why.
tell me why.
BUT!
on a lighter note..ive come up with a list of things i shld be thankful for(:
-me survivng 19 years of myself so far
-friends around me who are soooo nice!
*cellies like Jenn Cliffy &sometimes Isaac who sends me everywhere most times(:
*other cellies, Elizabeth,Mark& Jonathan whom im truly thankful just being around them(:
*uni friends like YO-natan (for being sucha a gentleman & helping me find my way out of my lost-ness) ,OLJ, Vic&Toria, WJ &Giselle.they are the fun-side of the otherwise dreadful uni life(:
*MY BESTIE CHERLYN(:for being there whenever i need someone to crap/SPAM to & checkin on me to see if im still alright(;
*friends back in dear-ol-sg who havent yet forsaken me(;
-Mom fr her undying patience which is almost God-like.
-Dad for understanding me&my needs & still supports me.i really hope i dont disappoint you,dad..
-lil'bro(:for being that goofball he always is.ILU!:D
oh & they're not in any order of merits (:just so you know.
you.
xoxo,23:30
hohoho.im here again.
hahaha LOL.im just feeling bad not bloggg whn you my dearest readers turn up so loyally & expectant of news of my oh-so-exciting life.
im sorry ive to be the bearer of bad news.
my life hasnt been that exciting per se ( hey vic (; )
in lieu of that, its been one not-so-blog-worthy.
well..it can be only as exciting as it can ever get whn it revolves the library.THE REID LIBRARY TO BE BOLDY SPECIFIC (;where the only perks are the epitome(s) of library-hotness(es) of the day.
LOL.seriously.blogging my day's events will only make this already lame post even lamer,this dry post even dryer.
i shall leave y'all with sth thought-worthy yes?
"Given the extraordinary ability of the human mind to make sense out of things, it is natural occasionally to make sense out of things that have no sense at all." -R.F. Smith
interesting, non?(;
xx
xoxo,11:28
when words start to jumbleits time fr a doodle!:D
done by ME of course(;
but seriously. the presence of a piano wld mean a whole lot of difference to me now.
its friday yet again.fast eh.
was planning to go out w vic&co later but then i had to not feel well.
damn my sensitive stomach.
or maybe its cos i had too much junk+library air the past week.
i think its the latter.HAH.
today's gonna be spent nuaing ard in bed & youtubing!
a break well deserved i guess.ive been kinda good all week!-muggin & the sorts y'know.(;
oh.&the weather's perfect fr delving deeper into the covers too!
why are so many good looking guys that i knw shorttttt?!?!?!?argh.
guess what.
yesterday while ilecting in the libs mr eyecandy came & sat beside meeee!!!omg.
well.its like this.
i needd a break so i left my stuff there & went off to find vic to chat.
thennn.aft chatting fr like 45 mins or maybe more..i headd back.& whn i was nearly back to that com i was like O.O !?!?!?!?!i recognize that pencilcase & that bag & i think i recognize him too!& he was ilecting on the com right next to mine.it was hilarious man.
the evn more hilarious part is whn the topic on which i was ilecting.gosh.im embarassedddd. D:its not that i want to but i HAD to cos i dont like to jumble the sequence of lectures & ive already planned to get that over & done with by that specific time.YEA.&I JUST SO HAD TO PAUSE IT AT THAT SLIDE whn i went off fr that little chat.
ahhhhh.& the topic of my ilect??
hees.go figure(;
whats a crush to do when you cant get through?
xoxo,00:26
THE SPIDER'S DEAD.I REPEAT.
THE SPIDER'S D-E-A-D.
OMG.EW.
yea it took me an hour to kill tt damn thing.
tts good enough okay omg.i swear that thing was doing its thang you knw the way it moves?yea in MY damn direction.if it werent midnight id have screamd like nobodys business.but then like evryone's asleep so its only me against the spider.
this is how i killed it.HAH.im so damn proud of myself!
i kept telling myself tt its only a damn spider.
tt didnt work.at all.
i got ready like my redbull bottle and some scrap ppr i was willing to sacrifice.my mags are still too precious to be used to kill something,moreover a disgusting arachnid.ew.
then i was there in forward-rewind motion fighting w myself to move the bowl,lift the bowl & smash it.yea the whole thing took one hour.damn tiring man.
-thank God i still kept the redbull bottle!!
REDBULL SAVES THE DAY.YET AGAIN!
:dSEE?!REDBULL ROCKS.
then whn i finally lifted the bowl the spider was like coming towards me like it knws i wanna kill it.i flung the ppr onto it n the i smashed it.&to make sure i smashed it smore.&to make sure again i smashed it again.so gross la.it looks like its dead but whn i smash it its legs still moved like its gonna get up anytime.
then i left it for awhile to clear the space around it.so i can scrape it off the floor without making its body further disintegrate all over the place.omg just imagine.it has 8 legs dunno how many eyes n a disgusting brown body.imagine if it disintegrates all over my room floor.i swear ill cry.
anyway.
befre scraping it off the floor i smashed it again.
then i piled more ppr ontop of it so i dont get my hands on those juices/inerts.
i maaged to get most of the body off the floor.except 2 legs.seriously.how gross is that?!?!?!ugh.i was already freakin out.then i told myself tt im nearly thereee.so i took another piece of ppr to slowly n carefully scrape the remaining 2 legs off the floor.now its all in the bin.
i feel so retarded now.
stupid spider.
& as u can tell.im severely arachnophobic.
i was tried*tested before & now tested again.
none of the above events were exaggerated.
total sickshit.
-&i still feel like theres a spider somewhere crawling on meeeeee.yuckyuckyuckkkkkk.
xoxo,23:15
my goodness.i feel like ive just been freeze-dried.its so unbelievably cold out there.
cold makes me hungry.
seems like im never full these days.
haiyo.
maybe its the library air.
LOL.
was kinda productive today i guess?
3 bio lects.almost fell asleep.hees.then whilst walkg ard to get me blood circulating saw mr eyecandy.not LL btw i dont evn like him now!hahh:D i dont evn knw him in person la.just some random guy i keep seeing out of nowhere.oh.&hes not exactly hawt either.
okay anyways.became much wider awake thereafter :P
im hungry.
cant think.
gotta eat.
BYE!
{edit}
OMG.
THERES A FCKG SPIDER IN MY ROOM.
OMG.
EW.
HOW DID IT GET IN HEREEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH GAWD.
EW.
its now trapped under a bowl.u knw some bowls hv this thing tt it sits on instd of just the floor?!?!yea its trapped in tt small space there.i tried to touch the bowl like to move it abt so tt maybe id just kill it like tt.but omg the moment i touched the damn bowl i almost died man.i can like feel my bp rising n rising n my heart beating like damn fast nowwwwww.argh.i hate hate hate HATE spiderssss.yucckckck.tell me howwwww.omg.how am i supposed to sleep tonight damn spiderrrr.please die now like vanish like please be my imagination only.gawd.i dare not move tt bowl which is in the middle of my room & in my way.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
{/EDITTTT}FUCK I CANT BELIEVE THIS.I DIDNT EVN SEE IT LIKE JUST NOW!!!EWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxo,21:26
was browsing pics again whn i realised i have yet to upload these pics frm long ago!haha okayy not really long ago but still,so it seems!
these were frm some really lame asian party.
the fast eddie's aftward was so much better(:
come lemme show y'all my pretty girlfriends!
giselle me vic!
giselle&vic twitting away at fast eddie's
kei(new friend!) &some guy.i think this pic's cute.LOL!
hot choc love!:D
he made my heart go oh-oh-oh(;
xoxo,14:22
"Don't ever be afraid of fashion ;Always have fun dressing up." James St. James.
oh YAY!!:D:D
xoxo,12:43
FIRSTLYYYY!!!HAPPY 18TH, GISELLE!!:D:D:D
her birthday was yesterday bt i was too exhausted to blog.
:P
kinda sorta mugged in the libs fr a while bfre proceeding to garbo for WHAT HAPPENS IN VEGAS/BOOST/mini shopping.
the movie was really funny!n gosh.Cameron-D & Ashton have such good chemistry!
i still wanna watch ironmannnnn!!who wants to watch w me??
nobody??awww. D:LOL.
on a side-note, &since its finally friday, im sooooo glad this week's finally over.its like 1 down..6 more??6 MORE WEEKS TO HOME!!!ahhh cant wait!!(((X
this week's been a really tiring week.i can just fall asleep anytime,anywhere(anyhow also can.)its not funny.
exams are seriously coming.17th JUNE IS THE FIRST PPR.& in uni-style.i really dunno what to expect!but fr this weekend,im just gonna chill.ill start on mon :Dim like gonna make the libs my 3rd home.im gonna eat breathe sleep think of bio/psych/chem/calculus.
HAH.lets see if that ever happens.i mean seriously.me? becoming a hardcore mugger???i cant even imagine myself being 1,even fr a day.
oh.&&&!!CHEM LAB!!
im so damn happy.i still cant get over the fact that i got a yield of 99.5% of PURE BENZOIC ACID fr chem lab yesterday!!!i was like WOOHOO!!ACE!:D:D:D
hees.maybe this lab coat/goggles thingy is starting to grow on me.
but that doesnt mean i like it you know.
i still find it a bother chem lab has to take 3 hours.
3 hours makes it totally NOT fun anymore.
the other victoria commented that i look like ive a bf.
-like im in love.
LOL.with WHOM??i really really really wonder.
most prolly MYSELF.:D
HAHA.
okay bye.
seoul bbq's up nxt!!
:D
xoxo,21:35
STUDY BREAK!!!
somebody sent me a quiz.
HAHAHA its damn lame.but its a timewaster.so why not.
100. WHATS YOUR CURRENT RINGTONE AND WHY?
turn it up-chamillionaire. just because?
99. DO YOU HAVE A JOB?
NO
98. FIRST NAME?
Eunice
97. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
kinda sorta.i think?
96. LIED IN THE LAST 24 HRS?
dont rmb.
95. DO YOU PLAY AN INSTRUMENT?
piano.
94. WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU WENT
uwa
93. WHAT ARE YOU EATING?
ginger snaps
92. WHO MAKES YOU MAD?
not who.WHAT.-->uni.
91. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE WHEN YOU
GROW UP?
myself.just richer(;
90.WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOUR?
RED/ORANGE
89. WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR HAIR?
black/brown
88. DO YOU HAVE A FRIEND OF THE
OPPOSITE SEX YOU CAN TALK TO?
i guess?
87. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
1younger bro(:
86. DO YOU LIKE CHOCOLATES?
depends when
85. WHAT FUN THING DAT U WILL DO THIS
WEEKEND?
chill!
84 . DID YOU DO ANYTHING TODAY?
HMM.
83. ARE YOU HAPPY?
i will be lying if i said yes.
82. WHO IS SITTING TO YOUR LEFT, RIGHT
NOW?
dust bunny#1,dust bunny#2 & the whole flock or whtevr you call them.
81. WHERE IS YOUR DAD RIGHT NOW?
in sg:(
80. DO YOU HAVE ANY KIDS?
no.
79. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO MISS
CALL/CALL YOU?
Victoria Tan.(:
78. CLOSEST BLACK OBJECT
my bag
77. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
yup
76.DO YOU HAVE BRACES?
NO MORE!:D
75. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER?
sometimes.
73. YOU OWN ANY PETS?
dust bunnies?
72. LAST TIME YOU LISTENED TO COUNTRY
MUSIC?
dont rmb.
68. WHAT CAN YOU HEAR NOW?
my remixed playlist +sirens outside.HAH.
65. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING?
magenta shorts(;cjc tee&jacket.
64. LAST PERSON TO COMMENT YOU?
Liz(;
63. DO YOU SING?
yup.
62. JAZZ OR COUNTRY?
depends
61. ROCK OR RAP?
rap
59. WHO DID YOU LAST CALL?
mommy
58. WHO LAST TEXTED YOU?
Amy
57. WHAT JEWELERY DO YOU WEAR DAILY?
1necklace,4earstuds,1bellyring.
54. WOULD YOU DIE FOR SOMEONE?
no
53. LATEST THING YOU'VE RECENTLY
LEARNED?
stratum spinosum granulosum cells secrete keratin precursor and glycolipid.
52. ARE YOU COLD NOW?
kinda
51. WHAT DO YOU SMELL?
chanel no.5
50. IS ANYTHING BOTHERING YOU RIGHT
NOW?
yup.
48. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA BE DOING
TOMORROW?
bio test,psych experiment,mug fr calc & movie+dinner!:D:D:D
47. WHAT DID YOU EAT FOR BREAKFAST?
loads i cant rmb.
46. LUNCH?
banana slice thingy &redbull.
45. DINNER?
dhal&prata.
42. CAN YOU SWIM?
yes.
37. FAVORITE SMELL?
fresh air.
35. UNITED STATES OR CANADA?
US.CALIFORNIA!
32. JEANS OR SWEATPANTS?
jeans.definitely.
31. WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING NOW?
mugging.
30. ARE YOU GONNA DO IT?
im gonna try.
29. DO YOU HAVE SOCKS ON?
no
28. DO YOU OWN BIG SUNGLASSES?
yup
27. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED SO HARD YOU
MADE YOURSELF SICK?
that i passed out.HAH
26. DO YOU LIKE TECHNO?
sometimes.
23. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
3
19. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
ANTM/HOUSE.M.D ((:
18. DO YOU LIKE 80'S MUSIC?
uhh.
16. DO YOU DANCE TO IT?
cant?
15. WHAT KINDA MUSIC DO YOU LIKE?
R&B.all the way.
12. BEEN TO SPAIN?
no
11. CAN YOU LICK YOUR TOE?
no
9. BEEN TO COLLEGE?
yes
7. FAVORITE TIME OF THE DAY?
bedtime!
5. SEEN ALL THE SPIDERMAN MOVIES?
yup
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
winter(:
3. WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO?
the day i finally graduate.
2. EVER GOTTEN LOST IN THE DARK?
yea
1. WHO IS YOUR LOVE
haha.WRONG QUESTION.
okay back to bio.
xoxo,20:41
went fr my FIRST chem lect in like a month.HAHA.yea im serious.im sucha slacker.oh dear.&im in uni.that isnt a very good combi eh.
but well!
I WENT!
& i learnt sth:
benzene=purple mule.
GO FIGURE(;
LOL.
that was incredibly lame.
the major thing at hand is evn more lame.like gosh.
its bio test tomorrow.
cant somebody like PLEASE assassinate me now?i can like totally cooperate.
&just for this once,ill sit so still the sniper will never miss.
D:
i just wanna live.
&uni is no way to live?!?!?!
like hello?its not evn a life!
ill keep the friends though(;
oh hawt damn.
this is my jam.
keep it partyin till the AM(;
xoxo,09:42
oh gosh.this is unbelievable.
WHY
WHY
WHY
WHY!??!
bio test TOMORROW
calculus test on THURS.
i'd rather die now.
heaven is so much of a better place.
WHY NOT KILL ME NOW SOMEBODY?so it wont be suicide?!?!
bio&calc.
i hvnt been gg fr lectures so i really dont know whats happening.&tts why i dont know abt those fckg tests till like yesterday??!?
dont ask me wht ive been doing cos i really wish i knew too.
man.i seriously gotta WAKE UP!!!
its like im stuck in a fog.
its gonna be a long week.
xoxo,12:24
its funny how a photograph
can take you back in time
to people&to places that you thought youve left behind..
browsing pics in my com seems to become my fav pastime now.LOL
& today it just hit me how much my bestie& i have changed!
MAH BESTIE & ME.
WE GO A LONG WAY BACK!!:D
&i miss her sooo much!
heres some pics & gosh were we little tootsies.
its like unglamness galore!
hees anyhoos.its all in the past now!
looking back i really think we're damn cute(;
this is sec2 i think!
UHHH.omg.this is by far,THE WORST.D:
& this was earlier this year.
(there were many more in betwn but pic uploading here just takes friggin EONS.)
& then there were a few precious classics of mah homies!
THE MEN OF MY LIFE.:D
little[yes, not so little anymore :(] bro&daddy
my pretty mommy!
i love him to bits!
&miss him really terribly :(
classic(;
HAHA.this was a few years back.
WHN I WAS OBVIOUSLY SKINNIER?!?!?!?DX
ROFL!!can't help but make me smile err'time i see this!:D
&the goofball i miss too much.
say it aint soi will not go
turn the lights off
carry me home.