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8 chemistry lectures in 10 bours.
okay ive decided(:
fly me to the moon,
7 days till bio in-class essay


hello my lovely twit/not-so-twit/totally-not-twit friends!
okay man.
im so tired.
ive a headache
& worst still.fluffly puffy frog like eyes now.
HOW DO YOU CURE PUFFY EYES??!?!?!
I DONT WANNA GO OUT LOOKING LIKE A SHREK TMR!!!!
:(



my humble apologies alvin.i knw u knocked the door just now.im nt in the mood to open the door/make conv w anyone now.
all cried out.

the sermon today + the class afterward really paralleled my current situation.
i was actually at the point of giving up today.till today.
im tired.i cant go on like this.i need to stop.
i cried out.He answered.(:


life.theres never a definition to it.


but well.the prodigal daughter returns.
Irenee&Bob -my new found friends.angles sent frm Above.
God,i knw You have a plan fr me.but whatever's happening now is all too gibberish fr me to understand.trying to understand it all myself just makes things worst.please shw Yourself real.turn my unbelief around as i renew my faith in You.hold my hand&never let go.walk me through this life You have given me.i dont wanna screw it up all over again.


-


slacked at vic/lj's place today.HAHA seriously.im becoming such a regular there(;
vic can be such a nua-er if not fr me.
if not fr me she wldnt have gone fr that 1hr+ walk :D
if not fr me she wldnt have had NANDOS fr dinner :D
but if not fr her i wldnt have my nails so nicely painted (((X hees thanks vic!


watched tokyo drift there.
its like the westernised version of initial-d, so its awesome.but not as awesome.if you get what i mean.


interviewed LJ.
HAHAHA OMG.vic is so damn funny i laughed till i cant anymore.poor LJ's just an epitome of innocence.shes was like "huhhhh?"gosh.
-she was all shagged cos she was just back frm a long hard day of fun whn we bombarded her with those utterly ridiculous qns.if you knw what i mean(;


& SHAPNEM!!!!argh.i miss you loads!!!you & your 2Lcoke&your chips& your ipod & your lappie & you "fshit?!?!".yes we really have major catchg up to do.its like this time last year whn we first kinda sorta became friends hey.HAHAHA ANYHOOS.thanks fr offering to help me find a job!i really really really really need one.(:maybe we shld like stdy at MU some day this week!IVE LIKE 15 chem lects to studyyy.omg.


yup.& the major thing on my mind now is that.i.cant.freakin.believe.i.actually.freakin.told.him.that.yesterday.
omg.& he didnt think its bad.
he actually just called.
but him??!!nooooo.not possible??!?!i mean.but how??!


maybe im just thinkin too much.


i need a bath.
BYE.


i dont wanna fall down again.
picking myself up all by myself is sth i dont ever wanna do again.
trust.to you, may be easy.
but i just cant.
& yes,ive tried.
-it didnt get me anywhere.
TGIFT
TGTO
TGINF
TGFT
go figure(:


calculus test tdy was _ i guess.given i wasnt exactly prepared.
not gg fr lects.not evn readg up/lectopia-g to make up.how prepared can i be?
oh well.


im so tired today i evn forgot wht i ate fr brekkie whn i rmbd eatg sth BUT WHAT.
slept 4 hrs last night crammg whtever possible of calculus into my gray/white matter up there.aft test was bio lect through which i partially snoozd.i was so tired.doing what?i really dunno.
then i had a mast min psych experiment arrangement thingy.
i wasnt warned.damn.i could sue.
its not totally their fault though.cos it totally slipped my mind the duration of the week..THAT I ACTUALLY SIGNED UP FR AN ARACHNAPHOBIA EXPERIMENT,whn im arachnaphobic already.wtfh.
they took my blood pressure before & after the test.& naturally my blood pressure increased.
-before: 101/58
-after:113/68
like wow.
i think im severly arachnaphobic.
i hate spiders.eww.


went subi with vic&LJ.
had lunch @ funtastico.lemon pepper squid salad was WOOHOO :D.but waiting fr it was excruciating.&they forgot to give us the bread basket D:.
then walked ard.got kinda bored&lethargic.went to woolie's.
&i realised my really essential-necessities (on top of what im already receiving) are:
-cookies/crumpets/biscuits of some kind
-gummies preferably starbust/snakes
-yoplait forme strawberry!
-a box of cherry tomatoes
-my yellow vitwater(;
-a fashion mag.
& then ill be content.
till my supplies run out.
okay i shall stop elaborating.


as requested by vic:
LJ&_ make such a cute couple.
LJ's so cute
_'s so that kind.
the new name we made up fr _ is so hip la.he can go pimpin w that name man. like _ _!
how compatible!
LJ's like so sweet abt him.
no denials eh?no regrets!(;
already havg ___p_c__vo_ eh?ooh steamyy!:D
& you cant evn wake up this morn!!!tsktsktsk.
hahhaha LJ ah LJ.T-word ALERT!dont make me say it(;
JUST FOR LAUGHS OKAY.






-
is it just me?do you feel it too?





you make me smile,
please stay fr awhile.(:


vic said,
"happy like this, sad also like this,so might as well be happy.MUST BE HAPPY!"
i totally agree(:
the chat with vic down at cotts tdy was nice.il gelato made it merrier:D
crashed politics lect today.
& made a nuisance of meself.
stupid hp rang not once, but friggin TWICE.yeaa.why didnt i put it to silent mode?!?!well i tried.i was IN THE PROCESS WHEN IT RANG AGAIN.omgawd.
-&with my awesome-cool&hip ringtone.boy.was i the highlight of the otherwise dry lect hey:P
oh well.


& i swear.im addicted to gummies AGAIN.&cookies.
& this is not good.
i think im becoming a junkie all over again.
-aft the "rehab" back in sg during the hols,this time round junkin makes me feel so last year.
hopefully its just cos of the ffffffg time of the month.
i was talkg to mom yday & she was telling me my mood was swingg.i couldnt tell.
& w her bearing the brunt of it.whoops.D:


stuffs due/upcoming aft hols:
-psych lab report.
-bio essay/research/bibliography.
-chem exam :lect 1-15
-bio online quiz


looks like the week's holiday's gonna be a luxury only happening in my dreams.
yes dream on Eunice.


oh&math test this thurs on complex numbers.
wth.
& i only knew it today.
&i hvnt been payg attention during lects.
& i hvnt been reading up therefore hvnt been doing the homeworkssss.
so many things i hvnt been doing.
i really dont know wht im doing anymore.
ugh.i hate school.



but i love my friends!(:


okay i just realised there arent any pics frm this last sleepover.
BUT!theres like xjuwkaubakjsn-ion frm the 1st one!:D
heres just some.
enjoy!

whilst Vic went gymming Lj&me decided to explore her mac.

plan to watch gossipgirls abandoned!

camwhoring became like top priority.:P

mac's iPhoto was like !!!!!

daddy,can i have a mac?pretty pretty pretty please???ill be good!*nods&givestheeyes*

iphoto=F+U+N.

okay im gonna stop talkg already.:D

the tunnel effect!((:

yo punk.

heres a demostration of the homo _'s prognathic jaw.

how fascinating.

we tried to look UG-LY.

LJ:angelina jolie

me:ashlee simpson.

we apparently failed!:P

this is either LJ/Vic.not too sure already

tryna look spastic

TOO COOL FOR SCHOOL.oh yes we are:D

gettin into the bimbo act.hees:P

innocent(:

-we still were..till Vic came along(;

uhh..i believe?

im still trying to..

the morning after.

frm here on are all self-loves.

dont say i didnt warn you!:D

morning unglamness.

waking up stage 1:

stage2:
stage3:awake enough already(((X
becoming sane-r
awake enough to realise my cheeks were actually so _..
attempt to look emo.

*black nails.

heees.
HAHA.OKAY TURNED OFF ALREADY?!

i so totally cant stand my obsession.

&finally(:

oh.all that also using vic's mac.

i want a mac.

maybe i shld try saving fr one.

omg.then im gonna get it like 9786351428402923729 years later.seriously.

thats all fr now i guess.cos Vic so cleverly deleted one most impt pic.D:

oh wells.

bye human beings(:

-

{edit}

the rest of the foitos are on facebook.:D

{/edit}

yippieyayyo.
i tried studying.
i really did.
I TRIED.
&ive come to this conclusion.
&since its been tried&tested many times & proven NOT false,
its my theory that i cant ever study on thursday nights cos my fridays are oh-so-exciting-i-totally-cant-wait-&-hence-cant-focus-given-my-already-short-attention-span-&-the-boringest-subjects-EVER.(except psych of course,but still?!?!?!)
omg.i really dont know what im doing.
i was on webct..
looking up psych notes..
&then the next thing i realise -when i finally do..- im on facebook/yahoo/imeem/chatting to the kindered souls back in my cute little home island who cared to UPDATE ME(;
okay.anyhoos.this is outrageous.
im in uni alreadyyyy
im feeling scared..yet not so scared.
i wanna study,i really do.like i really wanna mug like how i did fr olevs.
but then everytime i start..ill be somewhere else totally irrelevant of academia in like 45mins.
i seemd to have forgotten how to focus.like i did in whn i was 16.


what happened ,Eunice???


OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!
heees.im so proud of myself(X


#1 HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHANAEL TAN KAI REN!!!i tried blogging yesterday & apparently this lappie was having one of her days. -.- hokay.anyhoos!
i knw uve just had those irrinoyg braces on. &it hurts. like hell. yes i know.
but u must try to eat okay?or else hw to train whn u keep faintg like a cartoon on the track??!?!?!mygawd.i so wanna pillage u la.u really need one anyway.tsk.no fuel in you what is ur body gonna use give u the energy fr good timings??!?!please dont be stupid okay??really can die one.read the msgs i sent mommy on her hp!!!:Di love you.&all the best alright?i hope u really liked the card i sent home(; ILY ILY ILY XOXOXO:D:D:D


#2 I FINALLY SIGNED UP FR A GYM!!!?!?!??!like after 98271982645932days/kgs/fats later??!??!?!omgzsxzsxzsx.
its at willetton.
&its only fr FEMALES!!!i mean?!
how more cool can it get??
gym without the jims.LOL.no entry fr those with the Y chromosome.TOO BAD ,DUDES!!XD
i am so going there everyday.&its realllyyyy cheap too!much cheaper than UWA..or the community centres..or wherever.&the trainers there were really friendly too!the lady who helped me tdy was Lea.&theres a diet plan fr me too!hmmm.really really really thinking of taking that up!i think i should.


#3.I WAS FASTest FR CHEM LAB TODAY!!ohyea.i rawk man.hees.like finally??!
i got all my products.had them labelled properly.&got high on isoamyl acetate.
& fr once the teacher didnt scold me.LOL.i mean.not 1 sacarstic comment!!(X awesomeness.
& i only broke 1 boiling stick thing?heh.i just had to break something dont i. :/
oh.n i smuggled home part of the aqueous product.cos i really really like the scent.it smells like bananna!yummy.


#4.im so so so happy tmrs friday.like finally.omg.not that this week has been especially draining like all the others so far..just that i really could use a weekend!i think im really getting lazier.oh boy.:(
so my resolution fr next week is to go school&gym everyday.lets see if i can follow through that!(;


#5.getting pedicure tomorrowww!!!(X cant wait man.
okay now.what shall i wear?




i offe up mptf xfjhiu.tfsjpvtmz.
omg.i dbov cfmjfwd i buf bm uibu.
hpti j gddm tv gvmuz opx.
tpndcpez ifmq.
jn hpob cf njttbobsfyjd.
oh yes i am.


woke up to a cold&rainy morning.
couldnt go back to sleep cos i was damn hungry i dunno why.
so i had a huge brekkie!
& whn i say huge i mean really huge!
a tuna sandwich+a bowl of noodles+a slice of choc cake+an apple&a banana!
oh&i made hot chocolate too!!yummilicious.:D
its actually more of zamm-ing huge spoonfuls of milo powder into an average sized mug & stirring it in hot water.anyhoos.it was heavenly:P
tummy's happy now & im hopg to get some work done.
hopefully the other aspects of miss-internet doesnt cause too much of a distraction.:(
tts why im supposed to be at uwalibs today.BUT.cos its cold&wet&rainy i dont wanna go out.not evn to mulibs.so same same.hees.sorry dear friends frm both unis!!!/:S
im sucha lazy bum.:P


hees.&earlier while hvg my brekkie, i watched horton hears a who!really really nice.esp the ending.i love dr seuss's stuffs.they're really good!
& where i watched it will not be disclosed to protect the identity of the source(:hees.thanks loads anyway:D:D:D



the smell of the air outside really brings back memories frm last year.also cold wet & rainy..heavily eucalyptus-scented.ive grown to love it.
i rmb me rushg back to my tenseldam home aft sch just to be online cos i knew you'd be online waiting.then we'd talk fr hours on end.8 hours was the record.(:
&now the things that remind me of you.everywhere.
#my adidas sneakers.why did we have the exact same kind?!
#guns&roses-don't cry.you sang that to me.i loved it.
#skype&yahoo
"hello can you see me now?""hahah nooope" "what abt now??""heyy!yes i can""heyyy sweety.i miss you."
#peanut butter&jam sandwiches
#cold cucumber&tomato sandwiches
#cubis.


that was just last year.
its really sad how time flies whn ure havng so much fun.
& whn its all over,you're just left standing there wondering why its all gone.& wondering where it all went wrong.
i guess its mostly my fault.im sorry.
im not hoping fr you to come back.i understand if you have moved on.
i have too.i was just remembering,reminscing.whichever you want.
they say memories fade away.
but there are just some things a girl can never forget.



okay now.lets see if webct works.
this internet is really bad influence.
its like i can go anywhere else other than WEBCT!!!argh.
WHY.tell me why.D:



If constant stress has you feeling physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted, you may be suffering from burnout.(oh no.) When you’re burned out, problems seem insurmountable,(yesss..:/) everything looks bleak,(uhhuh..) and it’s difficult to muster up the energy to care—let alone do something about your situation. But if you’re able to recognize the signs and symptoms of impending burnout, you can take steps to prevent it. Effective burnout-busting strategies include taking care of yourself emotionally and physically, asking for help when you need it, and staying connected to other people.

Burnout is a state of emotional and physical exhaustion caused by excessive and prolonged stress. It can occur when you feel overwhelmed and unable to meet constant demands. As the stress continues, you begin to lose the interest or motivation that led you to take on a certain role in the first place.
Burnout reduces your productivity and saps your energy, leaving you feeling increasingly hopeless, powerless, cynical, and resentful. The unhappiness burnout causes can eventually threaten your job, your relationships, and your health.
Because burnout doesn’t happen overnight — and it’s difficult to fight once you’re in the middle of it — it’s important to recognize the early signs of burnout and head it off. Burnout usually has its roots in stress, so the earlier you recognize the symptoms of stress and address them, the better chance you have of avoiding burnout.


Signs and symptoms of burnout
The signs of burnout tend to be more mental than physical. They can include feelings of:
Powerlessness -not so..
Hopelessness -yeaa.kinda.
Emotional exhaustion -yes.
Detachment -does wanting to be alone count?
Isolation -no interest in social events?
Irritability -uhhuh.
Frustration -oh yes.
Being trapped -yea more often.
Failure -of not being able to meet even 25% of the day's agenda?then yes.
Despair -hmm.am i heading that way?
Cynicism -&sacarsm?
Apathy -yes:(
If you’re burning out and the burnout expresses itself as irritability, you might find yourself always snapping at people or making snide remarks about them.(im really sorry dear friends if i have!really.) If the burnout manifests as depression, you might want to sleep all the time or feel “too tired” to socialize. You might turn to escapist behaviors such as sex, drinking, drugs, partying, or shopping binges(oh no.) to try to escape from your negative feelings. Your relationships at work and in your personal life may begin to fall apart.You may lose your trust in others, believing that people act out of selfishness and nothing can be done about it.(& i thought it was only me being all paranoid/psychotic)
*[http://www.helpguide.org/mental/burnout_signs_symptoms.htm]


i really dont know why but im just so drained.
the only word that came to my mind was "burn out"
i decidd to google it.
found the webbie
& by the looks of it i think im either in the process of burning out or heading that direction already.
help.


didnt go fr psych lect as planned.cos i overslept.
met Lijin,Vic&Yonathan @ garbo fr lunch(:
finally had my looonnggg awaited/craved muffin:D
&boost too!!:D:D
then went browsing through the shops there.
bought some accessories&stuffs.&it all amounted to $__.shitnits.im so dead.:(
watched st trinians.horrible plot/storyline.but the really good-lookg pple acting in it fr our eye-feast almost made up fr it.almost.



oh.&Isaac's letter/parcel arrived yesterday!hahah it was his letter/parcel tt i missed la.
anyways.its really sweet!thanks loads fr the cap&the letters!!he even laminated it la zomgoodness!:D the whole thing really made my day which wld otherwise have been a _.
thanks a gazillion!:Dill write back soon(:


okok im really tired now.
to uwalibs tmr or not?
i really feel like sleepg in.like i really need to sleep.
dammit.why suddenly like this?:(


dont you breakdown . not now .

oh yes.
i seemed to have frgotten abt telling y'all damn loyal readers abt my awesome day.(;
hees.okay.
first of all.i was damn pro in chem lAB.-.- like was i everr??!!
in 1 hour ,i broke 1 beaker+1 conical flask.so smart right?
well done Eunice.X(
& the whole freakin chem lab is 3 hours.
can you believe it?ive to go through 3 straight hours of chem lab every week.
& i hate chem.never liked it & never will.
& i hateeee labs.sickshit.ALL types of labs inclusive.
yes i knw.
"hate" is a strong word.
& i mean every letter in that word.:D
all thanks to Yonathan though.if not fr him ill be lost-er than i already am.
p a t h e t i c.
im not made to be a researcher okay.
so even if thats ever the only available job or ill be happily homeless&jobless , i wont care.
no labs.NO.NO.NO.NO.


chem lab left me _stoned.
went home & watched tv.
then received a note frm POST that ive missed a letter/package they tried sendg to me this morn at like 7AM?!?!?gawd la.i was alr out of the house.they like just missed me?!?! f.
so.the note says that im supposed to go winthrop village anytime after 4PM to collect it.LOL.i was there at 530 & them oz slackers already closed the office.
!!!?!?*!*!*!*!. -not gonna say it.


thats abt all fr today.
OH. DANCE!!yesterday was awesome(((:cant wait fr next week!!i love love love danceUWA!:D
we learnt greek dance!sth like the one in MY BIG FAT GREEK WEDDING.then we endd up dancing in circles "O-PA-ING" to the beat:D
then we were taught abit of the hiphop/contemporary moves/routines fr the performance in sept!omg.im gonna be performing??!?!?!O.O hehh.cant quite believe it.
&i made new friends!(:
Amanda-my dance girl(; im tall so i had to be the guy D: ~hey baby.*in lowest voice possible&wiggles eyebrows*(;LOLZOMG.
Alyssia,Olivia & Afanasia.
why all the names so cool one?tsk.
Afanasia thought Eunice was cooler.LOL.
she said my name's rare in oz. i like it that way(;


um.but then maybe shes just saying it to be modest abt hers.


okay whatever.
ive got stuffs to do.
seeya later kids!(;
xoxo






she calls out to the man on the street,
sir, can u help me?
its cold&ive no where to sleep.
is there somewhere you can tell me?
he walks on,doesnt look back.
he pretends he cant hear her.
starts to whistle as he crosses the streets,
seems embarassed to be there.


oh think twice
cos its another day for you&me in paradise.
think about it.


she calls out to the man on the street.
he can see shes been crying.
shes got blisters on the soles on her feet,
she cant walk but shes trying.


-part of "another day in paradise"by Phil Collins.
the more i listen to it the more i can so imagine these poignant scenes Phil meant to depict.
if you were any one of tt "man" in that song..will you help?
i would.



you can tell from the lines on her face,
you can see that shes been there.
probably been moved out from every place,
cos she didnt fit in there.






okay im gonna go to school like a good girl(;
although ive already skipped math lect.
seriously.zomg.NEVER start ur day with a math lect.
unless of course its mrs choo ck teaching/lecturing.i miss her TONS.D: she's still the best!all my math teachers after her kinda sucked.
& honestly.mrs murray was just average.she's no biggie.



ehhh.not gonna start being so critical of things/people so early in the morning!
ive a loonnngg day ahead.
psych lect.2hrs break.chem lect.
then hafta get some special things done(;
then im planning on gg fr DANCE tonight!!!:D:D:D
okay.hmmm.who wants to go with me?
cos like..this is gonna be my first meet up w the club..cos i was inconveniently unavailable fr the first 2 gatherings.
oh dear.i hope the antisocial me doesnt take over then.as it usually does,in the most inappropriate of times D:



& yesterday?
tsk.all just a miscommuication.
imagine this.
auntie sam told granny&me that the machine was spoilt.
okay.but not WHERE/HOW its spoilt.
so we ignorant peeps didnt see anything wrong with it.
but cos of seeing what happened the last time the guys used that damn thing -the whole place flooded- so i cld anticipate what was gonna happen last sunday whn i used it.
& then came granny.
to her the machine looked fine.whn she switched it on it looked fine.all up till the part whn the cycle was almost over.whn the machine starts draining H2O out.LOL.
& given that she was all alone whn it happened.& shes so old.&its so cold.&yea she's so old.&tired.&all that crap&excuses tt comes with age,she got kinda scared tt it was her fault the thing happened.so whn i happened to be the unfortunate first one home yesterday.she prolly wasnt prepared as to how she was gonna tell me stuffs.so it all came out like an accusation,of me spoiling tt machine.LOL.& i got pissed.cos i was damn tired&cold&hungry&innocent most importantly.
BUT.the worst thing was waisam coming home & telling me that she didnt knw the machine was spoilt.LIKE HELLO.SHE WAS THE ONE WHO TOLD ME IT WAS SPOILT IN THE FIRST PLACE DAMMIT.***refer to the 4th line of this para.****!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gawd.ive all rights to be pissed/vexed/annoyed/angry now man.&somemore the promised piano isnt even bought yet.&its been like what?2 months??!!f la.that promise doesnt seem to be going anywhere else than being broken.
i hate people/situtions like this.:(
i wanna go home.


okay im gg to sch now.
thanks fr hearing me out!(;
xoxoxo