Eunice
♥
"
Pale with the secret war of feeling,
Sustained with courage, mute, yet high;
The wounds at which she bled, revealing
Only by altered cheek and eye;"
xoxo,18:35
OMGZXXZXXXZX.sour gummies=Eunice's happy pill.dont even leave me with a pack.please.itll be gone in like 30mins.or less.well.just done with a pack.allen's marella jubes.damn yummy.&im either having a headache now frm all that sugar..or feelin really high now.i really cant tell.oh.& damn full too.that i can tell.& hmm.i might have just beaten the craving ive been having fr daysssss!YAY:Dhmm.& maybe you can leave me with a pack now.im done liking it already:/okok now to the biggie!!!!:D:D:DI RECEIVED A PACKAGE TODAY!!!!!:D:D:Dheeees.its frm home!!:D:Dsee why i so wanna go home this semester break now??!& I CANT WAIT!!!!ZOMG.thanks mommy daddy & lilbro!(;i love love love you all many many many!!:Di hope my card reaches home on time fr mom's bday tmr.p.s i love you.
xoxo,19:20
all that i am, all that i have i lay them down before You, O Lord.all my regrets all my acclaim, the joy&the pain,im making them Yours.things in the past,things yet unseen,wishes & dreams that are yet to come true,all of my hopes, all of my plans, my heart&my hands, are lifted to You.Lord i offer my life to You everything ive been throughuse it fr Your Glory.Lord i offer my days to You lifting my praise to You, as a pleasing sacrifice Lord i offer You my life.i realised ive been fighting too much on my own already.i need to learn to trust.again.& most importantly trust God again.ive always been telling others around me to keep the faith,to trust in Him.but deep inside me ive been having doubts.especially lately.being strong is never easy.i asked God today.if He knows me inside out& vice versa& tt He knows what i really truly want,what im going through at the moment..then why is He putting me in this situation..¬ giving me what i truly want now,especially if by giving me what i really want now is gonna make me truly happy.why did He make me me?
xoxo,09:29
hees i like-love this song!!damn cute la.tell me somethingggg.something somethinggg.theres no somethingtell you one thingtell me something.& all the indian lyrics in between.:D
xoxo,23:52
LNS BEATS mambo HANDS DOWN!!:Dtts my verdict.cos you see..LNS=shop+spree+satisfaction+zilian-ing in changing rooms->MIRRORS GALORE!!:D+exercising(walking around shops fr like 3 hours+ IS exercise okay)mambo=socialising,whn im kinda antisocial already+drinks,&i dont wanna.+distrubing my already near perfect sleep cycleso therefore LNS is a much healthier way to spend a friday night!with my girlfriends of course:D:D:Dwatched vantage point todayyy!!!omg.damn nice.suprisingly interesting at all the different vantages.hmm.Yoghurt ps-ed poor Yonathan.so Yonathan was like the only guy tgt with Lijin,Victoria,Gizelle&me.& wow.if only he had company,he wouldnt hafta be sooo bored during the time we spent browsing shops pre-movie.BUT.he didnt complain!(;&it was really funny seeing him blush at our jokes/conversationnn.heees:Pafter the movie we went to habourtown fr LNS.then to nando's fr dinner.& OMG.Eunice hearts nando's many many!!!:D:D:Di want my chicken steak EXTRA SPICY!!(((Xim already craving it la.D:then after that we went karaoke-ing.i didnt really sing at all.except 2 english songs.cos uhm.i really dunno how to sing chinese songs & my mandarin is already _.then i wanted to go home real bad.cos i wanna sleep properly:P& i wanna wake up as late as i wanthowever i want,whenever i want,how & like i want,w/out worrying about how unsightly unglam my morningness will be.which is really unsightly unglam that one neednt have any caffeine anymore after witnessing a sight as such.&secondly,i need my contact lens case,specs,clean underwear,clean clothes to sleep in,my shampoo,body soap,facial soap,my face,eyes,body lotion & quite some more..:/heees.so sorry Lijin,Vic& Gizelle!:Dperhaps the next time whn its already preplanned?im so proud of myself you know(:i went to all the days of school fr this week!even though my ankle still hurts,im soooo tired & sian-ed tt waking up takes 45 mins.D:&chem lecture still bores the crap outta me.& math lect?ehh no comments.she leaves me stoned.-as early as 9am.DXuhhuh.so today was a well deserved treat!:D& im really bushed now.-terribly exhausted&footsore but satisfied though a teenybit guilty.see?my emotions cant ever be fully explained in just a single word.im sucha comlicated individual that even sometimes i myself cant figure me out :/complex eh.i needa bath.bon nuit,chéris(:
/Wednesday, March 26, 2008
xoxo,20:19
just some random picts artfully collected over the past few days:
when the mugging gets tough,the doodler gets goin'!!XD
the mini-banquet,courtesy of Alvin&Philin(;thanks guys!it was really yummy!
this is the moon.im not kidding.the moon was evn up till like 10+am today!
my pretty shadow:P
i spy a silhouette of a lady..

Optimisation:finding the maxima&minima of something that varies.yea whatever.id do better optimising the amount of free time[self-granted(;]i have,cos it varies too.how unfortunate.so im gonna watch HOUSE now!!!:D :D :D toodles!(;
xoxo,15:44

the unfathomable complexities of life,& myself included.
today's psych lecture got me thinking.
the lecturer: Mr Dave van Valken-something-is-it-burg?? brought this up.
:"the mind in the brain"
& if you were to point at any part of your body right now,where will you be?
then came the question of is there really a soul?if there is..then where is it?
my mind is what makes me,me.
cool stuff hey?
but tts not all.im just really lazy to type out the other cool stuff ive learnt today.too bad:P
i love UWA's psych lectures.they're like my highlights of the mon/wed/fri schedule.school will be a dreadful bore if not fr psych.gosh.i wonder what will happen next year.dare i put myself through overloadssessessess??://
& then again..i can never become what i want by remaining where i am,no matter how damn comfortable it is , can i?
oh wells.
calculus test tmr.
& i hvnt evn started revision.
but seriously.what has dee-y-dee-xes,limits,cosine,sine & tangent & all the other rubbish gotta do with being a doctor..or a diagnostician..or a pedaetrician..or a gynaecologist..or even a taitai??!!
sucha a waste of time.
-unlike psych of course!:D
my life in concertos,sonatas & scherzos.
i like it better that way(;
xoxo,15:24
good afternoon class!lets do today's lecture in point form shall we?(;sit up now& pay attention!#1. is it me or is it actually colder today??#2. the aircon is not on so it definitely is colder today!YAY!!:D#3. but frm what i see in perthweatherforecast.com its gonna be 30-sths again the rest of the week.D: bummer.i dont like 30-sths.#4. just watched "the girl next door" & my gawd,im disturbed.that ruth person is seriously sick.dont watch it if you have a weak stomach.#5. im hungry.AGAINNNN???!!!ugh.#6. its back to uni fr me tmr.dad asked if i was ready.uhh.im like never ready fr uni!?FYI?!!zomg.omgz.#7.granny broke my mug yesterdayX( .the mug tt dad bought fr me frm margaret river choc factory.yes THE mug.& she seems really guilty today,its kinda comical.LOL.im so nice i dont hold grudges.but if it were that brat..i tell youuu,i might be a little more than just pissed.vexed?not quite.more than that.much much more.#8. ive got tt Low by Flo Rida song stuck in my head.its sexaye!:P#9.what shall i do fr the rest of today?i really dont know.i think im gonna snuggle up with tt dan-brown-novel[digital fortress,if you must know].seeya!(;yes.you can go now.im being soooo lame.i heart apple bottom jeans(X
/Saturday, March 22, 2008
xoxo,19:56
lemme see.4 hoots frm passerbys/guys in cars/motorbikes/just bikes..7 honks from cars-duhh.6 whistles.i dont hafta further elaborate where this came from do i?yea.this is what i get while walking down the streets.like omg.hello??!im just walking??!!in my MGS PE-tee &fbt??!whats so nice to honk/hoot/whistle about?!uggh.initially it was like oohh-nice!then it started to get annoyingthen really annoying.& so up came the volume of my mp3.so even if there were anymore.i hadnt heard&so dont give a damn(:i think im gonna take my walks in the park frm now on.but damn.its gonna get boringgg.D:visited my previous homestay to collect the bankstatements which dumbly endded up there.yes okay.ive yet to visit the bank to edit stuffs.but still!its sucha a bother.& eeeeeyerrrr.i must say.i dont like people who put up a masquerade just to avoid the real situation.stop sweeping things under the carpet already!so pretentious.i dont like.im glad ive moved out.bye bye crocodile!the boys are gonna make hamburgers!& theyre gonna make 1 fr me:Dhees.ive such nice housemates(:{edit}okay its skinless thigh fillet burgers.LOL{/edit}Alvin!!stop making that $20 fly!:P{re-edit}its burgers no more!hees.the boys came up with chicken CURRY.zomg.it was heaven!!!THANKS!!:D-gosh.they can cook better than meee!!oh wells.its fr the better anywaysXD-& frankfertuers & semi stir-fry oyster sauce veggies too.really yummy.:Pwill post the pics next time!stay tuned(;tsk.ALVINNNN!!!WHY IS THE $20 IN MY ROOM AGAINNN??!!oi.{/re-edit}
xoxo,15:49
blogging round two. dingding!LOL.the more i stay at home the more entries youll see.there!a positive correlation!:Dyea whatever.the main reason im blogging is cos #1 im hot&bothered#2 ive just had a cold shower & am still hot&bothered.#3 pms is driving me nuts.the time when i have the cravings fr the weirdest baddest sinfullest food.the bullseye: chocolate.the more i resist, the more irritated i get&the more i give in, the fatter i get.see my point??!!ugh.its not fair.X(& then after the chocs im craving lemons.&they are out of lemonsssss!!well.i just ate the last one:/that just makes them even more out of lemons.dang.no more lemons fr me till sunday?!gahhhh!!& ive so gotta get soap tomorrow.D:
xoxo,10:10
this could cause that&that could cause thisbut it doesnt meant that this will cause that or that that will cause this.gawdd.i cant believe im actaully scrutinizing the correlation&causation of the events in my life so early in the morning.moreover on a Good Friday??!!i must be thinking too much.the rest of this post below is gonna be a depressing one.so dont read on if you dont want to(;ive gotta let it outttt!!here goes!-went piano testing yesterday.it turned out good&bad.good cause my itchy fingers FINALLY got a chance to play out their itchiness-or maybe most of it..?-bad cause that brat...!!!!zomg dont get me started with her.she's sucha a brainless spoilt gremlin of a brat she unnerves me & still expect me to be nice to her.like fuck i will.must she like have everything in the world just cause she doesnt have a father??!she has a mother who spoils hera grandmother who spoils her EVEN MORE.a fuckin good life&she can study here in aust WITH her mom/grandma with her WHAT MORE DOES SHE WANT?!a piano which she cant even play & that if they get a piano i must be there to TEACH HER?!fuck.over my dead body i WONT teach tt brat.its like whnever i play the piano she will start crying like i did sth wrong.she's so bossy she doesnt even show respect.its not suprising that whenever her mom shouts at her i feel so damn happy inside.&shouting at her is the most her mom will do to discupline her.see what fuckin good childhood she already has?!this is not the 1st time she pissed me off already.& i wonder how much more i can take.if they dont get a piano im really considering finding another place to live.that has a piano already of course.&like piano is the only way i can destress la.i was so frustrated yesterday i decided to go fr a walk.& with the cast just off its better but still hurts a whole damn lot just walking.i cant even walk my frustration off la.my goodness.God help me.
/Thursday, March 20, 2008
xoxo,00:02
hees.(Xi like this new song!its mainly dedicated to mrD though -.- you annoy me.stop all that bullshit.its not gonna work with me.say you miss me & all that crap.&how you wont be able to survive.BULLSHIT.all of it.be a man.whether you wanna live or not is totally up to you.disappear fr 3 months.then come back &history repeats itself.im not falling fr it/you even if you are falling for me.ive got a life to live & it beats waiting fr you to bloody come online HANDS DOWN.goodbye.this is FINAL.wanna love me?wanna touch me?think twice cuz' you gotta long way to godon't know how to actyou betta' fall backit's like that cuz you gotta long way to goit's not that deeptake it easyyou wanna please me?got a long way to go.
/Wednesday, March 19, 2008
xoxo,21:23
be like the bird who-
resting in his flight,
on a twig too slight,
feels it bend beneath him.
yet sings,
knowing he as wings.6 days w/out exercise..or even much movement of any kind.oh no.i think im getting FAT!X(being around granny 24/6,its a sure thing that im more than well-fed.its supposed to be a good thing right?i meann..she's so old.&she takes the trouble to cook fr you.worrying tt ure refusing food because of mere courtesy.will you have the heart to refuse her?i know in my heart of hearts, i wouldnt.oh wells.mom called earlier.i asked her how.she said go sign up fr gym!okayy!:DdanceUWA actually starts TODAY.ohmygawd.stupid leg.if not fr this cast ill be in school todayyy!!!oh no.Yonathan just told me.ive a math test nxt thurs.so soonnn??!!!:/zomg.things to do whn the cast is out:#1:LONG walk.#2: withdraw$$$#3:BREAK THE CYCLE.I MUST#4: mLd&nfb&lx (;#5: ONGLIJIN!!!YONATHAN!!YOGHURT!!wanna watch moviesss???!??!zomg.VANTAGE POINT IS OUT.HORTON HEARS A WHO is also out!!!!!&&&STEP UP2 TOOO!!!!okayy theyre out tomorrow..BUTBUTBUT!!!okok???#6: uhhmm soak up the sun??i think im becoming vitaminD deficientttt!!!like 6 -going on 7- days w/out sun?!omg.#7: i kinda miss those long lonely train rides.uhhuh!#8: whn school starts for real for me on tues.LISTEN UP!!stop like staring into space/stoning!!#9: oh & might i repeat again??!LONG WALKS EUNICE LONG WALKS!!gotta walk all the f-l-a-b off.well..since i cant be running so soon anyhow D:#10: be anti-clumsy.this just random.but i really think im addicted to endorphin.no exercise=no endorphintherefore my moodiness/crankiness/sian-ness/having the loner syndrome/_ these 6 days.im really sorry dear friends if i seemed pms-y ://am chatting with a really dear old friend(;-Isaac its been seriously EONS since we've last seen each other!like..3 years??!im glad we're still friends..though loads certainly have changed in these 3years..&in 3 weeks he's going to NS.wow whats with the number 3?LOL.anyhoos.heres part of our conv:Bring On NS Baby: has it been raining in aust?eunice gabriella tan: nooooBring On NS Baby: seeeunice gabriella tan: its supposed to be autumn la its so damn bloody HOT like omgBring On NS Baby: ur sun's too bright thanks ta yaBring On NS Baby: thanks ta yaeunice gabriella tan: LOL!!hahaBring On NS Baby: too bright a smileeunice gabriella tan: okok enough ure flattering me already!Bring On NS Baby: lolBring On NS Baby: was i even?? =DBring On NS Baby: hehh, made ya smile right?eunice gabriella tan: yes of cos u did(:Bring On NS Baby: oh man... tmr's gonna be burning even more in auseunice gabriella tan: yea as forecastedddBring On NS Baby: >>this just in<<>
Bring On NS Baby: her secret? an awesome blazin' smile
eunice gabriella tan: AHAHAHHA OMGZ
Bring On NS Baby: headlines ah i tell you
Bring On NS Baby: HAHAHAHH
Bring On NS Baby: singapore claims credit two days later, names Eunice Tan KaiXin as an honourary citizen
Bring On NS Baby: rofl
eunice gabriella tan: hahhaha wow i did sg proud didnt i
Bring On NS Baby: yeah man u did
Bring On NS Baby: raised more than just eyebrows, but fires!with what?? nothing much, just a smile hehh
he really flattered me okay!gosh.
yes we've dated a few times before..which didnt end quite so well..
but im really glad tt after all these years we still remained friends(:
those kids we were then..now tt i think of it..we're actually quite something werent we?
& then we grew up.well.dont we all?
its always whn looking back that you realise how things could've been better done.
its all in the past now ;my past.
& im glad ure part of it(;
we live for the present& look toward the future yes?
&ur future fr the time being is the big NS hey.all the best!!:D
& all the best fr ur future after that & after that & beyond too!!
;as our lives change,come whatever,we will still be friends forever(:
xoxo,21:36
O M G.Yonathan's just done helping me do this week's online assignments fr CalMeath&psych!!!!!!omg.dont say no need fr repayments k!ill repay you whnever i can(:same goes fr Alvin(:he bought me gummies again today!!im so blessed to have u guys ard:Dits really weird how i cant freakin access webct & therefore lectopia or evn see those lecture slides whn i sooooo need to see them:(& then blogger seems to be so damn accessible its about the only thing i can do online besides chatting with mi amigos.i cant evn check my email la fr goodness sake.-can u believe it?it takes FOREVER to get into yahooooo.yes YAHOO of all pages shld be like a click away.&yet i seem to be waiting eons just fr tt damn page to load.shitnits.ugghh.2more days with this cast&im gonna be freeee freeeee freeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!the sound of freedom never before soo pretty(:
xoxo,13:36
today is wear-specs dayy!!hees:Dthe day i refuse to wear contacts.LOL.okayy.lunch was fab(:granny was my lunch buddy.how interesting is that?totally.shes kinda told me her life story.LIKE OMG?!SHE WAS BORN WHEN THE JAPS INVADED SINGAPORE!!!she was supposed to be abandoned cos her family had to run & that also cos she had 5 other siblings older than her.so therefore if you're on the run..the less you carry the merrier.but anyhoos.her mommy being wise,didnt abandon her.& hence she's able to tell me her lifestory here today whn shes 70?or nearly there..??oh!&she evn studied till primary6!i mean in those times??!how cool is that!it was all in mandarin.im suprised i evn caught the gist of it.hmm.the parts she rambled on in canto were totally lost to me though:/oohh and her family had famiily politics too..hence the estrangement.just like mine too. -all fr the love of money&the necessary evils.her mom was like flown here&there from johor to china to johor then to singapore then to johor again where she died at the grand old age of 102.ohmygoodness right?yea.she,her mom i mean,even endured frostbite in china because of her desperation to be flown back to johor/singapore -i didnt really get tt part.but since johor&singapore are so close well it kinda means the same thing yes?:Dthen we went on talking abt the singapore government?okay that part i think i lost her already.the mandarin she was speaking in suddenly became like gibberish.& i was like...okayy look as if i understand..was that a question?uhhh nod &say" hao xiang shi.."(meaning yea looks like it or i think so..a form of agreement perhaps?)or she wants to see if i agree on her point of view..whatever that is..agreeing is better so i dont hafta disagree..so i went,"uhh ya..dui dui.."zomg.im hopeless in my native tongue.oh dear.the limit of f(x) as x->a must equal f(a):as function is not defined for x< 3
thus x cannot approach 3 from the left.
&therefore the limit does not exist.
oh no.i am becoming sucha a nerd.D:
xoxo,17:47
Shapnem&me!!hahha i know this pic is like so long ago..about a month ago?yup(:but i like this pic.hees.was taken on Shap's bday.come to think of it..i really miss those mudochuni mugging times.it kinda stinks trying to mug on my own.i wanna phunk the old times out again with you (all?)!as soon as i can walk properly ill be there :D
xoxo,14:19
there's like always so many other-things i can do whenever there's studying/reading up to be done.like-blogging?checking my inbox?reading novels?eating?calling mommy?groovin to the beat?checking out the latest fashions/beauty productsss?chatting with whoever's so conveniently online?& then whn im finally done studying/reading there seem to be nothing i can actually do to fill this void of time that seems to stare back at me.how evil.because..-theres nobody online-ive checked out all there is to check out on the latest fashion etc-im done groovin to the beat.it gets boring after awhile..-mom called alreadyyy-ive eaten a tad too much ://-im tired after all that reading to read anymore-done checking my inbox already-& then here i am blogging.LOL.& then havent you realised that the person you wished not to see will come happily sauntering by & the person you so wish to see is no where to be found.orthat time passes the slowest at the most inappropriate of times& fastest whn youre finally having fun?(given the time spent having fun equals time spent doing the un-funs)orthe downs in life lasts so much longer than the ups?or when you want that particular something so much you wld do anything just to get itbut when you finally have that very-much-covetted-something, it doesnt seem so much of a biggie anymore?im not becoming a pessimist,dont worry:Dbut im just really intrigued as to why our minds work this way.&that why the above mentioned seem universal..whn we each live totally different lives?hands up if you know the answer(:
/stuck in reverse.
xoxo,04:19
since the day you left the old me left too.ive changed.are you sure you still want the person i've become?yes we hvnt stopped thinking abt each other.never once.bt still something has changed.its not the same anymore.you say you'll never hurt me.yea.leaving me is hurting me.how can i be sure that will never happen again?im not your girl.not yet.
/Saturday, March 15, 2008
xoxo,22:37
omg.auntie Sam's thinking of getting a dog!!!1omgomgomg!!!a little doggieeeeee!!okay okay.lets not get overexcited or carried away.:Phees.had a heart to heart talk with her just now.& before we even realised 3 hours had passed.wow.was that a counselling session??!cos i felt much better after the talk..she's a psychologist rmb??zomg.she said a dog will help with my emotional wellbeing.but she'll get one only if my dad agrees to pay fr maintaenance while she pays fr the food.hmm.& its not evn my idea.the technique of self-generated persuasion_psych101.:Dokay im tired.bon nuit everyone!/for all the wrong that you made right.(:
xoxo,01:31

now aint this a pretty sight?
i cant wait to get it off though.
im beginning to realize the restrictions in a life of a paikah.
ultimate sianness.X(
`
but with every bad theres a good side!
=>privileges & priority treatment.
like i dont hafta get up theyll get it for me
like even Alvin got me a box of red rooster salt&pepper squid today(;
oh.i hvnt introduced Alvin?he's my housemate.together with another guy called Philin,a student frm murdochuni.
thanks Alvin gor-gor (; LOL.
i owe him $ fr 2 packs of gummies alr he still bought tt squid box fr meeee.i didnt ask fr it!but thanks anyway.it was yummy:P
,
yea &my cellies were really sweet too!
i told Cliffy i wont be able to make it fr cell today cos of the abv illustrated condition.
yes.the typical response:shock.
yes its true.my leg is in a cast.
yes im okay not in any great agony.
yes the pain is within the bearable threshold.
yes thanks fr asking(:
yes i will take care of myself.
yes im trying to get well ASAP!!
yessss:D
they insisted on giving me like a quarter of the cake they had during cell today when its totally unnecessary.but thanks anyway!i love you guys too!:D
& since i believe theres a reason for everthing that happens..
whilst stoning today i contemplated my situation
& the only thing i can come up with is that perhaps ive been complaining too much these few days & that God wants me to see that when i open my eyes & look around there are people who truly care, that im not as alone in this whole world as ive thought i was & to treasure & be content with what i already have.like my legs for example.
although terribly cliche but it really seems like one will never know how precious something is till he /she loses(or almost ,or temporarily) it.
-
D: VANTAGE POINT IS OUT!!!!
omgomgomg.LEFT LEG, LIKE HURRY UP STOP THROBBING& BEING PAINFUL & BEHAVE LIKE THE RIGHT ONE CAN??!!
omg im being so lame my hair's standing.
but seriously.i MUST catch this!!!!!
.
its mind over matter.
pain?its all in the mind.
okay.
not pain.
doesnt hurt.
i am okay.
arrrggghhh.
-
/before i said amen.
/Thursday, March 13, 2008
xoxo,00:31
oh my goodness everybody.Eunice sprained/twisted/fractured/broke her ankle.LOL.its a suspected case of fracture according to a specialist-but-not-so-specialist cos apparently i still needa see another specialist sometime next week.to confirm.they said my case was interesting.oh gosh.i really cant believe all this crap.anyhoos.fr the time being my left lower leg is in a cast.how cool is that.& even in a cast it still hurts la.its been throbbing non-stop like _.oh & bathing.dont evn go there.im suprised i made it out alive.its gonna mean off school till the next appt.but seriously.stay at home till then?!no no no.ill go crazy.im gonna try to go on mon.i said try.but still!!this stupid cast means-no shopping trips,not even window shoppinggg x(no outingsno cellgroup meetingsno churchno social lifeno _.im really hope its just a bad sprain.but a sprain wldnt hurt so much wld it?shitcakes.homework is boring.& i keep telling myself to look on the bright side.bloody bright side.what bright side??!theres a vibe party on the 22nd.& obviously i cant attend.f*shits.im not in a good mood.scoot.
xoxo,18:43
"under stressful situations, you are obsessive-compulsive...."am i really?perhaps tt explains the amount of $ ive been spending on clothes recently.:(im really really really really (x10000000000000000) sorry daddy.yea, i know.like tts gonna help.uni life is stressful.adding the part of it being overseas, away frm home + all whom you love.its stressfully sucks.i dont wanna be emo, but why am i crying more than usual nowadays?even chancing upon mom's pic [the one i took with her the day we went to the zoo my last week in sg] brought me down to a sobbing slobbering mess 2 days ago.im much better now.though my nose&throat still feels funny whnever i think about home.i even contemplated continuing my course in sg.but then again tts the whole point of me being here to study isnt it?i must be stronggg!!!but why is it getting so hard??its harder than last year.how weird is that?& i need a piano.BAD.real bad i tell you.i even drooled at the sight of one whn i was at garbo just now.& it was in a poster. :Xoh no.am i going insane???!watched 10,000BC today w Lijin,Yonathan&Yoghurt.its really nice!got my mind off things fr awhile..if only tt kind of romance happens in real life..but in reality..there's really no such thing as romance right?there really isnt time fr it anyway.or it always -almost always- turns out the wrong way.oh.& welcome home,little brother!(;i really miss you.//stop.rewind that.
xoxo,01:01
*"every man is about as happy as he makes up his mind to be." -Abraham Lincoln*"I have been impressed with the urgency of doing. Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Being willing is not enough; we must do." -Leonardo Da Vinci/because im worth it. (;
xoxo,00:11
three things.
#1. CONGRATULATIONS CHERLYN!!!IM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!!((X NOW GET YOU ASS DOWN TO UWA RIGHT NOW.:D :D :D
#2.there goes my very 1st week of uni.
& everybdy's asking me hw im finding it/coping.
LOL.oh dear.i really dunno what to say.
its like ive to start readjusting back to school-mode all over again.
*waking up at 6.
*lectures/tutorials/lab.
*HOMEWORK.
*online tests/assessments whn the freakin internet _____.
-well..as compared to the one back in sg,evn the best ones here are really ____.
#3.tmr's sat.
i really dunno wht to do.
i cant&wont go shopping.nope.not even window shopping or anywhere near S-H-O-P-S. D:
im feeling really guilty as it is alreadyyy:(
-although its like the funnest thing one can actually do here..other than gg to the beach.
but as forecasted.tmr's gonna be chilly.bummer.X(
there are indeed some readings i can do..but i really dont wanna start yet.
watched love actually on tv just now.
its really funny how in almost all movies love works out so well in the end.
& whn the movie ends those single/recently unattached find themselves thrown back to earth/reality ;the bump a little too hard.
rather love lost than never loved?
i seriously beg to differ.
id rather never loved than having lost love, thank you very much.
/Wednesday, March 5, 2008
xoxo,22:10
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y
D A D D Y!!!(((:
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hehh omg.this is only the 2nd day of uni & im already late once.
woke up at exactly 0745 today.took me awhile to register the numbers cos i couldnt believe my eyes whn i saw the time on my hp which was under my pillow which was supposed to ring cos i set the alarm but i think it most prolly did just that i never heard the bloody alarm.this is like the deepest -if not,the bestest- sleep ive gotten fr the longest time la.im that sleep deprived okay.
then i took another 15 minutes just deciding whether or not i shld go to school.becos im already lateee.:(
which i obviously did, otherwise the girl who appeared at uni looking so unglamly flustered is someone else..like my twin..or my kiasu nemesis perhaps?LOL.
lectures were yet again introductory.
i liked the psychology speaker though(: her jokes are so subtle & some of them kinda cynical/sacarstic ;its really quite funny only whn youre fast enough to get them:P
spent another bomb on yet more textbooks,yes ouch,dad.i feel fr you.:/ but all that's gonna make the next Doctor Tan hey?ILY((X
lilbro's fieldtripping in taiwan
mom&dad on Honeymoon#2 in taiwan.
oh dear.now isnt that quite not right?
i had to ask mom to repeat the location whn she told me.
have fun anyways!!:D
Your eyes steady talking
And your tryna fight it
But some things baby are not worth hiding
And we can find heaven,
If we go look together
So won't, won't you tell me,
And get it off your chest
/say it.
xoxo,19:40
hello ohmygoodness im really annoyed.
do you ,miss 2-faced bitch, really think gossiping&backstabbing&being such a 2-faced-idiot's gonna make you popular?
oh no.no.its gonna go the other way ,little one.
what goes around will absolutely come around.
& when it does its gonna hit twice as hard.
im sure you've heard that before.
well then stop being the fool that you already are & take heed!
watch your step girl, cos though you might think it impossible,you're blindly digging your own grave.
& when you're down the whole world will rejoice.
oh & ur entourage?gosh who knws what will become of them?hopefully they'll see the light by then.
nobody's gonna miss you the way you hope they will.
like hello.
nobody likes you.
haven't you heard?
no?
well im telling you now.
putting it straight to your face.
better yet,on the world wide web.
you cant be that dumb as to miss this.
yes im talking about you to you, you dumb-not-blonde-2-faced-gossiping-cheena-lian.YOU ARE IN UNIVERSITY ALREADY.FOR GOODNESS SAKE, GROW UP!!
you pretend to be nice.
saying hello & all that.
i knew better.
i knew something was amiss.
my intuition was right.
couldnt have found out sooner.
-thanks to a true friend(:
you're cramping my style you idiot.
go find something else to do.
&might i suggest,watching your own back should be like top priority in your pathetic case.
-instead of minding what i or the many others out there do or dont do.
seriously,dont you have enough on your hands already?