yesterday's choronicles :
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009

of all the things i've believed in,
i just want to get it over with,
tears form behind my eyes,
but i do not cry,
counting the days that pass me by.

i've been searchin deep down in my soul,
words that i'm hearin are starting to get old,
it feels like i'm starting all over again,
the last nine months were just pretend,
& i say-
goodbye to you.

goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
you were the one i loved,
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.
i still get lost in your eyes,
& it seems that i cant live a day without you,
closing my eyes,
& you chase my thoughts away,
to a place where i'm blinded by the light,
but its not right.

goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything i thought i knew,
you were the one i loved,
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.

&it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time,
i want whats yours & i want whats mine,
i want you,
& i'm not giving in this time.

just tell me im just being stupid&silly to still go on thinking abt you.
-not that i want to..
its like i can tell myself its over.
but still the brain seems to have a mind of its own.
whn your image come to mind..i cant stop that downward spiral.
im missing you so much,it hurts.
maybe this is what it takes to get over you all over again.
uggh.why hvnt i learnt that last time??!!

howeverrrrr.
this might all just be me pms-ing.
orrrr..
it might all just be you.you.you messing with my head.
dammit.

but i think the former is more reliable.
cos aft all its just pmssssinggggg.
omg.now im annoyed.
annoyed by the mere random thought of you.
annoyed by the way i let myself think of you.
annoyed by the fact that youre still in my head.


yes shapnem.
yes please.
lets soak in the summer sun while it lasts!!
&omg.please.lets go clubbing!!
-gotta shake all the stress away!

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next week's agenda:
mon:lunch w jenna & qg.
tues:meet carmensoonkuey&co.; just fr laughs @woodlands sec ;D
wed:dinner w cherlyn & bev!!cant wait!!((:
thurs: midnight flight to aust. -dasvidanya my darlings!