yesterday's choronicles :
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009

its settled. im shifting :D

but ill still be keeping this one. for old time's sakes. :P
-im sucha garung-guni with my sentiments :x

this is me now.

blogger's being lame.
i might be tumblr-ing after all !! :D
tumblr seems cooler. somehow.

micheal jackson's been on mtv's replay since 8pm. omgawd.
i'm starting to like his songs now, just when he died. irony irony.
its quite sad though. seeing him so alive in those mtvs. its hard to imagine he's actually out of this world for real already.

okies! back to checkin tumblr out !! :D

and yup. I KNOW I NEEDA UPDATE PROPERLY SOONNNN. maybe on tumblr (; loadsa peeckchuresssss ^^
Intimacy is a four syllable word for, "Here's my heart and soul, please grind them into hamburger, and enjoy." It's both desired, and feared. Difficult to live with, and impossible to live without. Intimacy also comes attached to the three R's... relatives, romance, and roommates. There are some things you can't escape. And other things you just don't want to know.
- Meredith, Grey's Anatomy.
21ST JULY 2009 : BLESSED FATHER'S DAY.
tis' a busy busy day from dawn till dusk.
and oh-too-fun too (:

daddy dearest! ehehehe this pic here's my favouritestestestest C: mmhmm.
i love you daddy, you're more than a hero to me. you're my one and only irreplaceable superhero. whatever will i do without you ! i think being a dad is the hardest job in this whole wide world. the responsibility of being the bread winner, the wisest advisor, the shoulder to cry on, the repairman , the ears to bear the brunt of my complains and whinings and pms and and and the list never ends does it. thank you daddy, through you i've been truly and abundantly blessed. i love you with all of my heart and yes as i've said above, you're more than a hero.really really. you're my superhero ! xxxxxxxxxx

yup anyways, first thing in the morning we went to church.

and then to telok blangah 72 for a family gathering
this is my biggest aunt :D so pretty right ? she's nearly 70 !!
this is Megan. the younger twin. the youngest of this whole family too ! its obvious where she got her awesomely cute looks from (;

this is Glenda, the older of the twin. the happier less grumpy one. love her ttm (((:
brotherly loooveee (:

the following 2 shots are taken by Glenda. really not kidding !

Megan
Glenda
and then to some tepanyaki restaurant on a hilltop on Jurong. i don't remember the nameee D: but it was the yummiest ever. the chef was really cool. and pro. there was one where he set the beef on fire which was so cool but i was too stunned to remember to take a picture. oops. anyhoos !


he could actually de-exoskeletize a king prawn in 2 seconds. and we were all like O.O
and that king prawn was really to die for !!! sweet,crunchy and succulent.perfect.
and while waiting for the dishessssss.....




she was complaining of her non-existent wrinkles. so to help her feel better i gave her a free non-existent face lift. she loved it. she said she will come back for more. muaha. im good. :D

she regained her confidence :P and we decided to twit together. she's adorable to the max.i love my mommy !!!! ((((:

i think this is rather artistic dontcha think so ? got the chef's sweaty forearm. :9



heee (x i got skyhigh post-dinner :D
we bringing sexy back. xD
YAY NAT!!
while waiting for dessert.
turning on the sepiaaaaa

nawtbad! :D
to the windy hill top after dinner for the breeze.



taken by bro (;


and i think my ride's preetaye sleeek dont need no pimpin yo.


and they lived happily ever after ! THE END ! :D
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22 JUNE 2009 : finally out with Yonatan.(((: & we finally caught terminator:salvation. nice movie ! :D loved the sound effects. pity that jap store not there anymore :/ ah well. mcspicy was nice too ! :D

and im uber tired now. goodnight y'all. ill update properly next time, if things are still relevant. :P byebye.

guess who's back, back again.
yes she's back. (;

LOL.
i tell you. i havent had a proper sleep for more than 48 hours already. and im exhausted to the max.
my arms havent ached like that in awhile :x

and just now while waiting for this stupid retarded com to load i fell asleep. D: amazing right. only to wake up again cuz mom came to tell me that she&daddy are going to church today. mom likes this pastor especially. didnt want to miss his sermon. i told them to go ahead cuz im too dead tired.

just now at the salon i kept dozing off. the salonnist said to just sleep and another lady helped hold my head. LOL it was funny.
and the lady who shampooed my hair.omgawd.she's awesome. you must be really really really tired to feel that good just having your scalp scrubed,massaged,shampooed&conditioned. it was nearly heavenly. ^^ and that sight of 2 people blow drying my hair while i look like a trainwreck was something i will remember forever. cuz its really funny, in a weird way :/

i love my salonnist :P she's called Jolin and i see her everytime im back. hehh. she knows what i want without me even saying much. talk about pro-ness. she's the epitome ! :D

mom&dad said i lost weight. i was like mehh. i really dont think so. :/

im kind of excited.
im going to help mom usher the father's day service tomorrow !! :D first time and wow.hee.
my eye sockets are still aching.

and i really cant wait to give daddy his father's day prezzieeeee ^^

oh. and this morning. arrival back home was really truly breathtaking.
i never knew Singapore could look sooooo pretty at dawn. like the peachy-pink-lavender morning sky. we were coasting near ground, so i could pretty much see the sleepy towns of the east side. and then i knew, this will be the one and only place i will ever ever ever call Home. yes it can get pretty crowded, hot and humid and stuffy and the people's kiasu-ness can sometimes get to me, but really. i cant imagine myself calling Australia/Perth/anywhere else Home and mean it. like here when i say " i'm going home !" i really am going HOME. but anywhere else, its just for convenience, yknw.

i seemed to be the only one on board the plane truly psyched about the plane's touchdown. i miss home okay. gots a problem with that. dont worry i didnt do anything stupid. just that everyone was like -.- when they exited the plane while i was :D :D :D all the way. till after breakfast. i guess food in the system triggered that z-reaction. oh and breakfast was the bestest i had in MONTHS. ((((: hmm. come to think of it. i havent actually had breakfast in months, the months i was away. D: oh dear.

yikes. i seem to be lazing around. or am i ? cuz some people i know seem to be rushing all over the place. im impressed :D
but i really feel like any sudden movements by me now will cause that headache to intensify.
anw, i dont really know what im rambling about in this post.
im sorry for being such an incoherent post train wreck victim.

time is cruel.

-it doesnt wait when you desperately need it to and takes FOREVER when you desperately need it to FREAKIN HURRY UP OMGAWD !?!?!??!>.<

i think its cruel to keep me so desperately excited. excitedly desperate ?? hmm. i think excitedly excited's more like it. :D 11 more mins till check out. i seem to have been waiting for this moment ever since i told my daddy ive decided to come home this glorious intersem break. teehee.

all my bags are packed & imma ready to go !

& guess what. i havent had anything at all to eat the entire day !! save for the jiuhe yonatan gave me. im starving.im gonna hunt my grub at the airport ;P ive already had a brief idea. a nice magazine with a hot steamy cup of hot chocolate and a sandwich. its gonna be well deserved :D ( and in case you were wondering, yes im planning to sleeepppp my eyebags away on the plane, as ive always done :P) cuz ive been working so hard all day packing and doing laundry and packing and nearly killing myself lugging that awesomely heavy luggage down that flight of stairs to the storage room. ive got another huge luggage. but this time its for home :D hee. its actually not heavy. i dont think theres much stuff in there anwayyyy.its the stupid plastic covering. really.

OKAY YO. its time for check out. & the last min packing up.and stuff.

au revoir, room 92 ! :D

& bon voyage to meeee :D :D :D

wheeee !!

exams are finally over can you believe it :D
i never thought id see the light of this day :D :D
oohhyeaaa!! :D :D :D

yonatan and i went to freo again but this time to shop for stuffs and yes, cicerellos yo ^^
took FOREVER to find that kakulah's sisters shop. in the end we got directions from a hotel. we looked touristy and lost enough to pass off as tourists i guess. LOL. cuz the hotel valet person came asking us if we were in need of any help. we were in an embarassing need of a map. of fremantle. and like hello. this is my 3rd year here ?!?!?! this is how hopeless i am with directions, im sorryyyyy.:(

turns out we missed a turn. somewhere.
and if you were wondering why kakulah's sisters of all places. hehh its cuz mommy dearest wants her figs from there. 500g for her and my aunt, each. i got some ginger cubes too. sad stomach.

and then we went to the city for more stuffs. heehee.

tonight meeting vic cuz she's so nice :D
she gonna help me tompang some stuffs to be tompanged at wanjun's place.
thank you vic, thank you wanjun !! :D

ok i gotta pack up now. as ive been doing the past few days, with yonatan's help :D thankyouuuu. it sucks ive to vacate my room ( like all the other intl students who're going home )during the hols cuz its to be occupied by some winter student during the time im gone. so "its gotta look like nobody lived in there." according to taraaa. SIGH. and its ALOT to packup. everythings gotta be cleared.and stuff.thanks dear ((((:

and i still have laundry to do which can only be done tomorrow. -.-

ok PACK NOW. bye.



tomato love :D
guess what ! ive just downed the 2 boxes of mini tomatoes i bought this afternoon at woolies for $1.78 each. on top of dinner. argh. its the cold i think. it makes me hungry all the time. :( but mini tomatoes are YUMMY TTM i tell you. mommy will be pleased teehee. :D

and i look grotesque.
cant stand the deadness/paleness/tiredness of the image im seeing in the mirror. i sorta resemble a zombie or one of edward cullen's relations :P LOL LOL. im kidding.
but my eyebags are till my cheekbones luhh. not exaggerating.
and i think its totally not worth it. cuz the sleeplessness doesnt seem to pay off.
i mean. im so tired therefore cant study meaning im just reading blindly if im ever reading at all.so why waste time staring at those words when im better off getting some shuteye right. WELL NO. cuz the moment i hit the pillow yes i fall asleep but then to wake up 2 hours or so later cuz something woke me up and am still exhausted but not be able to sleep properly again cuz of the terrifying thoughts i keep having of the looming paper. that was me last night.and the few nights back. :(
and then to finally make myself get up at around 5 plus to try cram somemore which only stresses me out even more cuz i seem to have forgotten the stuffs ive learnt the night before.
(and its so cold especially in the mornings its a dreadful bother just to uncover the blankets off myself.)

and then to go for the exam lightheaded and dizzy and partially dazed.
only to come out of the hall feeling like crap. cuz of the more question marks gained over that paper.

i really really hate exams.
and i cant wait to be home. seven days. 2 more papers. SIGH.
and its only 1 semester. why does it seem like a year already ?!?! well. it really feels like a year. :/

although those past 4 papers really did fly by, now that i think about it. hmm.
impossibilities and stuff. i wont be able to pass these exams with my own strength i feel, and every time i start to panic id remember phil 4 :6-7 teehee :D it really helps me calm down.
my God is the God of the impossibles, so i have nothing to fear. :D thanks mommy for all the offline msgs. :D i cant wait to see youuuu. ITS SEVEN DAYS cuz today's almost over.heehee.

is it me or is year 2 really harder ??
i feel drained. like instead of manufacturing more brain cells, not literally, but in the sense of gaining more knowledge i feel like the more i know the more i dont know.. and stuff. think i heard that somewhere before ? cliche but absolutely true. :/

decided to take a break today. brain gots to rest too yknw !
so i watched 27 dresses ( ive no idea why it made me cry ) and the devil wears prada (working in the the couture industry is actually really quite scary ).

oh ! got an email from Tara today saying i might be changing rooms next sem !the best news ive had this week !! :D i hope its for the better. like its really quieter as it is known to be. my neighbours as of present are party animals. so imagine the amount of funny noises they make at the most randomest of hours. like till 3am ?!?! Dx yup.that bad.

seven days and 2 more papers.
i can definitely do this.
God help me.









tagged by revalle (; & just because. teehee

Does your Facebook password have to do with a boy?
nahh

What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?
sincerity (:

Are you a girly girl?
i think ?

Big or small purses?
ehh depends.

Do you enjoy drama?
yea. on the couch. with mommy.

Did you dress up on Halloween?
never have, never will.

Do you call anybody by their last name?
ehh. Daneman , Carpenter ,Badderly, Lewansky , Lohhausen , Kane, Engle..etc :P

Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
HAHHAHA DO I??? i dunno havent noticed !

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
hrm.dont think so ?

Eyeliner or mascara?
mascara.

American Eagle or Hollister?
wha..??

Heels or Flats?
flats for everyday, heels on occasion :P

Straight or curly hair?
never liked straightness..

Hoops or dangling earrings?
dangling earrings

Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeap.

Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
dark please :D

Do you have a best friend?
bestfriends (:

Do you like your life?
whats there not to like?

Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
yes too many times already D:

Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
HAHA DUHH.

Ever slapped a guy in the face?
yup. sec school. neo er jyn and ashwin dey. drama drama.

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yea

Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
hee. ive only thought of this one same person once today, i just havent stopped ! :D

Do you ever wish you were famous?
thanks, but no way !

*IN A BOY:
Good cook or take you out a lot?
COOK pleasee !! cuz i cant D:

Funny or Serious?
serious at the right times, and funny most times. :P

Cute or Hot?
hahaha both (;

Long or short hair?
short of cuz. long's just gay.

Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
hrm. i wouldnt know.

RANDOMS:
When is the last time you were in a photo booth taking pictures with friends?
LAST YEAR.

Who's the last person you had a sleepover with?
dont rmb :x

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing them?
yea.

Who was the last guy you talked to?
Yonatan x3

Do you think best friends can be replaced?
not in gazillion years!

Does the last person you held hands with mean a lot?
yup definitely.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
nobody cared to mention that to me before :/

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
people who i talk to everyday. haha

What friend do you tell the most secrets?
the person who spends most time with me AND who i can totally trust. (: yknw who you areeee !

Are you going anywhere next summer?
either in sg or perth :P

Are you waiting for anyone's call right now?
nope.

Are you shy?
at the most inappropriate and random times :(

Are you talkative?
sometimes i think ?

Does the person you like know you like them?
he better !?

what does the last text in your inbox say?
hehh ehhh its personal.

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
x3 .. :x

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
sometimes..

How is life going for you right now?
ITS THE EXAM PERIOD WADDAYA EXPECT !?!??!

Do you smile a lot?
yea i cant help it. :x

One thing you're looking forward to?
20TH JUNE YO.

How do you feel about change?
its essential. or else life gets boring.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
yes

Last time you got a text message and smiled?
today,that last msg in my inbox.

Have you ever made anyone laugh when they were crying?
yess hehh.it felt good !

What are you doing today?
cramming theories of cognition into my cognitiveee...thing.

Have you ever regretted letting someone go?
nope.

Do you prefer to be around people, or by yourself?
i dont mind it either way. its like when ive enough of people i like it by myself and vice versa ?

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
ehh. what kind of wilderness ??

THIS OR THAT:
Rap Or Rock Music Scene?
rap.yo.

Movies Or A Dance?
movies AND dance ??

Horror Or Romantic Movie To Watch With Him?
i hateee horror movies. so its definitely romantique.teehee.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
He Sang Your Favourite Song To You, But He Sucked And Messed It Up?
awww.tt wld be sooo sweet :P id give him a hug and a kiss.

He Played Dumb Stupid Jokes On You All The Time?
id get annoyed. duhh.

He Started Speaking To You In A Different Language?
id slap him.

A LITTLE MORE ABOUT HIM:
Do You Like Your Guys To Stand Straight Or Slouch?
straight !

Shy Guys Or Super Outgoing?
in between. (;

Do You Like Your Guys To Play Instruments?
if he could ! C;

gosh. looks like my cheeks have puffed up :( thats why stress sucks. stress maketh me fat-eth.:( anyhoos. today's exam day one. how was it ? all i hope is to pass it. 65 marks out of 130 isnt too hard to get...or is it ????esp for someone with whom numbers are definitely NOT her forte. :x

next up, neuroanatomy. bleaugh. im so steamed out by the end of stats ive hardly the motivation to study for this. :( whyyy. and its so cold. and i tripped over the wires on the floor which brought the heavy desk chair thingy down on my leg. im gonna get another bruise for sure at the rate its still throbbing this very moment. :(

hehh i did something that kinda got me excited. its lame i guess. but i made a list of the movies i really really wanna catch !! omgawd. and as many as possible during that -very slowly but surely- upcoming intersem hiatus back in sunny island Singaporeee !!! :D :D :D
talk about my life's excitements. :/ i shall make do with what i have yes :b

here's the list !
- Terminator : Salvation
- Transformers : Revenge of the Fallen
- My Sister's Keeper (!!!!)
- Ice Age 3

and hopefully at the end of this year - NEW MOON !!!
ayeee getting carried away alreadyyy. gosh. exams have only just begun and im already making plans for the fun stuff.

well.

one has got to look on the bright side of life yknw. especially when the outlook of one's current situation is rather bleak. considering the fact that its already 11 plus PM and one has yet to start on revision for neuroanatomy.

what happens if one's brain actually rather resents studying about the brain ? like the theory about like repelling like and opposites attracting ?

brains.
brains and tofu.

hrm. i should really shuttup and study now.

but yknw. im actually scared. but when i look at my notes/webct i can feel this very heavy cloud of "sian-ness" suddenly weighing me down. its so overwhelming and depressing. and it terrifies me. heart and soul. :(((

tell me, doctor, what should i do ?


ayee. im definitely renovating this space when im done with the exams. yup. its THE exams. and when i finally get back home sweet home. where the internet connection is a gazillion times better than it is here. really. the connection here just adds to my misery. especially during this cold autumny exam period. this is the part of unilife that i hate the most. i actually had to force myself to sit still in one spot AT THE TABLE to freakin revise. and i hate sitting still. and i hate forcing myself. and i hate mugging for units that i hate. like PSYC2203. bloody stats. if i see another formula i swear im gonna puke.its prolly a factor contributing to the many waves of nausea that keep hitting on me. at the randomest of times. like in the middle of the night WHEN IM TRYING to sleep. yes. imma isomniac again. :( or in the middle of service today i almost puked. it was the worst on the way to church cuz i was in the van. it had an awful/musky/sick smell. made my nausea that i had all morning since i woke up even worse. SIGH. must be pms.

yup & as i mentioned above. IM GOING HOME !! that thought makes me smile. heehee. i can hardly wait. mommy sounds pretty psyched too. she's already planning out that very first weekenddd!!ooohh boy. (((: finally a healthy home cooked meal in THIRTEEN DAYS. talk about awesomeness. THIS is awesomeness. yes mommy. i actually miss your cooking. really really. :D and daddy. he's soooo sweet and i love him soooo much. he's now in new york on a business trip. OMG NEW YORK. i know right?!?!?! yellow taxis and shopping galore ! well. thats for me. i really hope i can earn enough buck'roos one day for this dream to be even tangible. even for one day. gosh.

and my bro's into dancing ?!?! omg. so awesome. im so proud of him. cuz that's what ive always wanted to learn. to dance properly. and some day i will really take up classes to learn it properly. people say i look like a dancer. but the funny thing is, I. cant. groove. :( ill just look like some retard flailing her arms and hips and body around. i think ? but i will learn how to dance. i will. :D

it really annoys me when people think dancing is gay, even more so when they think straight male dancers might have some gay tendencies just cuz they dance. AND even more so if they specify dancing as ballet and give hints that there is something majorly wrong with dancing ballet for a guy. like hello ? dancing does not equal to ballet and only ballet ?!? and yknw. i really admire those male ballet dancers who are actually straight ? imagine the stereotype they have to live with. and that inspiring courage they actually emit just to pursue their dream of being that "male ballet dancer". i really admire them for their " heck what everyone else thinks" kinda attitude. and that's what i will definitely call, a man. (:

and i really think fake eyelashes are the most disgusting things a girl can ever put on her face.


i realised i havent been blogging properly for awhile.
& thats prolly the cause of my logorrhoea :P teehee.
-too many opinions kept bottled up for wayyyy too long.

ok. enough chill time. its back to the stuffs that really induce nausea. yikes. even this very thought is making me nauseous again. :S

i lookie lika nerdaa. B9

aites.
this will only last 13 days.teehee. ooooh how i looovee the sound of freedom.
don'cha hear it ??
hark !!
she beckons !! :P

this much i found out about myself today just doing those annoyingly addictive quizzes on fb when i really should be doing some other kind of scholarly quiz on webct. but learning about myself is just as important as learning about the brain and spinal cord and how our memory works right right ? uhhuh. :D

and because its soooo eeerily true that's why i had to post it.
i highly doubt that its anything to do with that "framing effect" psychologically speaking. cuz yknw. when its talking about you, you'll definitely know it. like KNOW IT know it. yknw.

so, this is about my " inner self ":
You hide your emotion sometimes .(true) You are a moon type of person.( i dont know) You tend to be the quiet type or in contrast, you are happy but sometimes you act it out in order for you to no burden your friends with your problems.(true again) You've faced some problems in your life.( yeap)Your heart has dealt blows before. (uhhuh) You tend to think about things alot more than other people.( i guess ?) And you may get annoyed with people who act out without thinking about what would happen later.( YES omgawd. it pisses me off.) You are also the type of person that others often come to you with their problems because you've been through plenty, and you are very understanding. Though you sometimes feel lonely.( yeap.) Your demeanor is usually chill, and relaxed.( true again.)You usually are logical, and rely alot on facts and information on decisions. You often keep things to yourself.(another fact.) This is just one side of you, and you have different faces in different situations and environments(truee), just like the moon has phases. ( what an analogy- moon of all things, but i guess it kinda makes sense.)

and i also found out the other day that " I am really... a philosopher! ".
You constantly analyze the deeper meaning of all that occurs in your life. You are on a never-ending journey to find your purpose in life. You are able to see through the surface of situations and the facades that people often carry. You are observant and non-judgmental. Your creative and thoughtful mind enhances your chosen and natural talents. You feel deeply and passionately about everything that you do. Your life is about the pursuit of knowledge, understanding, and answers. You have a great depth to your heart and mind that some may find intimidating and others will be drawn to..

bizarrely uncannily true. :/
i know all these quizzes are just for fun but sometimes when the results hits me at that very spot, it really gets me thinking. its like being hit with this sudden realization. or something like that..if yknw what i mean.

you should really try out any one of these quizzes and see for yourself. then maybe you might actually understand my intrigue.

and then there were those quizzes about "perfect matches".ahem.
nevermind that. really. (:

after much considerations/contemplation/introspection/cogitation/meditation/you get the idea/etc, i find it in my heart to say that if its meant to be its meant to be. i wont fret about it. (: and so, i think, therefore, i am, gonna believe. see ? its "hope" no more ! i believeee.heehee (: after all, its not gonna be my will , but God's. right?


but just so you know, i still love you. forever and today. xxx
Even the best fall down sometimes,
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme;
Out of the doubt that fills your mind,
You finally find you and I collide.